Why...?

[blademaster1505]

I sit in the same spot everyday for what I feel is too long of a time. I know part of this is my fault for just not going out and doing something, but I think it would help if I had someone to share my time with. I really just want a companion to spend my extra time with, I want someone to hang around with, talk to, make jokes with, cause mischief with, and most of all have those caring happy feelings most couples have with each other. I realize that this is partly my fault because I don't go out every night on the prowl for a women, but I just feel that is too wrong for some reason, I really don't see the point of just going out constantly day after day looking for someone, I really just want it to be like a random meeting one day, we see each other and just hit it off right there, and then talk for hours about nothing, spend lots of time together, and before you know it you're dating each other. I'm so lonely, I miss the companionship with someone else, the loving caring feelings, and the happy feelings that I once had. Part of the reason I don't just go out and scope out girls night after night is that I'm quite a shy guy until you get to know me, then I open up, so first meetings are always the hardest things for me, because for some reason I get shy and nervous and just clam up. I also don't see myself as the Quagmire type, where you go out everynight looking for someone new all the time, hell I can't even find one. I really hope that next semester I find this girl that I'm on the lookout for, I'm really gonna try and change, start going out more, don't be so antisocial with strangers. I really just want a girlfriend again, not just that but a close friend that I can confide in in my times of need. I just don't want to be lonely anymore. I fear that my size is what turns people away, I know I'm not the skinny buff guy that is so attractive with big muscles and shit but I also feel that if a girl is basing people off of looks than I don't really want to be with them in the first place, but it seems like all girls do that. I'm going to make a strong effort to change my apperiance, hopefully I can become more appealing to the ooposite sex. If any that read that have any suggestions please feel free to give them too me, anything would help me out, except for negatism, that doesn't help out at all. Please help, I don't want to be come a 40 year-old virgin.

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