DISCLAIMER... I was dwelling on this, but now I won't any more (this is how i deal with things)

[blackvalentine]

you can tell it has been there for a while, the ivy has perfected the act of growing up the sides until it looks beautiful,
but underneath that ivy there is a brick wall that you can tell has been there for about 18 years,
it is there to protect what is inside and to keep out all that is bad,
yet when the wall protects it does not let me live the way that i should.
i have this wall, it is around my heart and i do not know why.
issues, yes there are some i don't know where the roots of these issues are but they grow just like the ivy, to protect me,
i need to break this wall and learn how to live through both the pain and the good times.
deep inside all i want is to be loved the perfect way that is in my mind,
there is a picture of you standing there and it is all perfect.
i know that nothing is perfect and i need to accept that,

soon this wall will come down i do not know how or why but it will,
and then the world will see really what is behind this sarcastic wall.
there is only one thing that keeps me from you and it will be standing no more, soon...