how can i change?

[blackteardropsx]

well today was fun, no not really. last day of the 9th grade project but i have so much more shit to work on so its really not over for me and alex. me and alex gave up on kyle today. jeez i try so hard with the kid but nooo its like he dosn't care anymore, so im not going to anymore. i found out that i have alot more friends then i thought i did. i flipped out in the art hall today in front of all the lower classman, because they got ice cream we didn't. and the weird thing was that i didn't get into trouble for it, i guess they have more problems to worry about then me. i guess realy everybody has more things to worry about then me. rachel and alex finally excepted the fact that i still love you, i just can persue it. i really don't want to i mean we both argreed to let it go, you just let go a littl faster then i did. but i'll be okay. n the en everything will be okay because i'll get away from here with dana n alex.

i don't know what it is bout *you* that has me soo amazed. all that comes out of your mouth is lies. but that sweet smile and gorgeuous eyes just make my heart melt. i know i should tell you to burn in hell like all the rest and i have soo many people telling me that to. but something in my heart is telling me not to. and you should always listen to your heart right? you said that you loved me, did you really? honestly and truelly because if you can tell me that and you didn't, or still don't then i do wish you burn in hell, because thats where liars and people that break hearts go

Rachel:"all men should be put into cages and given a number. they should only be let out for sex, wait no we can go in to do tha"-craziest girl out there

about my mood... haha i just thought it as funny