Apr 20, 2010 16:05
filicide by proxy,
haet my lif,
remember when we went crazy? good times.,
breaking is what i do,
didn't take much did it,
broken things,
tired of it all,
crazy to begin with,
kuga's sword,
hang them all,
these tags cannot contain my angst,
trauma flood,
people suck,
sob sob angst,
go away just go away,
brb seppuku,
!event,
and this is still mostly normal for her,
how do you spell irony,
what is hope,
all aboard the crazy train,
love is a lie,
fuck this shit
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KAORU!
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No.
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Close your eyes, Oz.
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No, I... [He hates his own helplessness. Hates it, and deep in his subconscious, remembers that time, deep in Cheshire's dimension, when he'd been able to do something about it. When Oz speaks again, his own voice has gone gentle and cold.]
Are you suffering, Kaoru?
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Close your eyes.
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I'll destroy it.
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Everything. A dirty world, full of people who don't want me. I hate it. This place where I shouldn't exist. I don't want it.
I don't want this unneeded existence. This wretched person...who should not have been born. I don't want...me.
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So please... don't cry, Kaoru.
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...no. That isn't...what I want. Pointless...wasted effort. [She doesn't even know if it's the truth herself, but her mind is telling her so. She pulls the sword close.] Understand, Oz. I have waited so long...
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And in his confusion... just what was he doing, anyway? Oz blinks; he's lost it, he's lost.]
I don't-- [What was he doing?!] understand. Kaoru... [By now, his voice is shaking-- fear for her, fear for what he might have done, what he might have said...]
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I know. You can...never understand. No one can. I have always been alone...and I am alone now. Because they are not like me. [Her hands shook and she clenched them around the sword, the sharp edge of the blade sinking into her skin. Her voice dropped to a barely audible whisper.]
Oz, you are not like me. Don't ever be like me.
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You don't have to be alone. You don't-- [And is this desperation for her, or for himself? He doesn't sound very convincing.]
I'm already... it's too late for that.
Please, Kaoru...
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Oh, Oz...does it hurt you? Don't be sad. You will not miss me. You never even knew me.
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