To hell with the entire world.
I haven't written in a few days. Everything's really piling up. I'm really sick of the entire world. I want everything to go away...but at the same time, I want everything right exactly where it is. I'm sick of not working out, I want to get off my ass and start whipping it into shape....
Oh ...wait a second...you ask my why I love Reignor? Why it's been three years that my heart has been attatched to one person through other relationships and through three thousand miles? That is the easiest thing in the world to answer...because he's him...look....
LZBlackRoseQT [9:14 PM]: and I wish you were here so badly, you don't even know
sh1047 [9:14 PM]: well let me be here for you?
sh1047 [9:18 PM]: hockey ...I'm sorry I can't be there and I'm sorry I'm so far away but I'm here when you need me you know that
LZBlackRoseQT [9:19 PM]: Reignor...I love you, I do.
sh1047 [9:19 PM]: I love you too :)
sh1047 [9:19 PM]: be happy!
LZBlackRoseQT [9:20 PM]: you wouldn't tell me that if you didn't mean it, right?
sh1047 [9:20 PM]: but babe I gtg its 12:30 here and I have school tomorrow LANA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I MEAN THAT WITH ALL MY HEART!
And people ask me why I'm in love with this guy? Hello. DUH. He's perfect, and he's been perfect for three years...more than that...I've just known about it for three years, he was perfect before that. Not even. He's more than perfect because of the times that he's NOT perfect...not that I know of those, I really don't, I've never seen him be imperfect...except once, but I was not the best person toward him at one point, and that's something I'll regret for the rest of my life. He makes me feel okay - I was crying two seconds ago, and he was there, even for five minutes, and by being himself, he wipes away the tears with ...an IM. I can't even see the kid and he makes every hurt go away. How does that happen? Don't ask me, I don't know...it's just him. It always will be just him. We've dated other people, and we're going to continue to do so, and I'm not worried - we come back to the same fact every time. I want him, he wants me. Period. If that ever changes, at least we'll have found out - but right now, and I'm hoping for a long time ahead, the truth is that he is what I want, he is the person I love, and I have no problem letting him into the deepest side of me unknown by anyone else. Love is a sweet thing, when it is the right person.
Oh ...wait a second...you ask my why I love Reignor? Why it's been three years that my heart has been attatched to one person through other relationships and through three thousand miles? That is the easiest thing in the world to answer...because he's him...look....
LZBlackRoseQT [9:14 PM]: and I wish you were here so badly, you don't even know
sh1047 [9:14 PM]: well let me be here for you?
sh1047 [9:18 PM]: hockey ...I'm sorry I can't be there and I'm sorry I'm so far away but I'm here when you need me you know that
LZBlackRoseQT [9:19 PM]: Reignor...I love you, I do.
sh1047 [9:19 PM]: I love you too :)
sh1047 [9:19 PM]: be happy!
LZBlackRoseQT [9:20 PM]: you wouldn't tell me that if you didn't mean it, right?
sh1047 [9:20 PM]: but babe I gtg its 12:30 here and I have school tomorrow LANA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I MEAN THAT WITH ALL MY HEART!
And people ask me why I'm in love with this guy? Hello. DUH. He's perfect, and he's been perfect for three years...more than that...I've just known about it for three years, he was perfect before that. Not even. He's more than perfect because of the times that he's NOT perfect...not that I know of those, I really don't, I've never seen him be imperfect...except once, but I was not the best person toward him at one point, and that's something I'll regret for the rest of my life. He makes me feel okay - I was crying two seconds ago, and he was there, even for five minutes, and by being himself, he wipes away the tears with ...an IM. I can't even see the kid and he makes every hurt go away. How does that happen? Don't ask me, I don't know...it's just him. It always will be just him. We've dated other people, and we're going to continue to do so, and I'm not worried - we come back to the same fact every time. I want him, he wants me. Period. If that ever changes, at least we'll have found out - but right now, and I'm hoping for a long time ahead, the truth is that he is what I want, he is the person I love, and I have no problem letting him into the deepest side of me unknown by anyone else. Love is a sweet thing, when it is the right person.