i never stick around quite long enough to make it.
well i deserve nothing more than i get, cause nothing i have is truly mine.
and thats it.. isnt it? if i never risk a thing, if i always have a back up plan... then i cant expect to ever get what i really want.
if it were that easy, there would be no such thing as second best. but there is,
because im not satisfied.
i had it all figured out, i could go with or without you. with whoever.
but i was wrong. because even though im smelling his dozen roses on my desk like its just what i wanted... like its a worthy substitute for your affection/attention.
even though im acting like ive got the upperhand... ive been wondering all week where i stand with you, and you alone. if i mean anything. if it meant anything.
god im such a girl.
so i guess ti have to allow myself to be brave enough to put it all on one bet.
even if my odds are low. and i get the feeling they may be. maybe?
i put myself all out there because im learning if i hold back, if i play the games
that quality i want wont even be a choice.
and thats it.. isnt it? if i never risk a thing, if i always have a back up plan... then i cant expect to ever get what i really want.
if it were that easy, there would be no such thing as second best. but there is,
because im not satisfied.
i had it all figured out, i could go with or without you. with whoever.
but i was wrong. because even though im smelling his dozen roses on my desk like its just what i wanted... like its a worthy substitute for your affection/attention.
even though im acting like ive got the upperhand... ive been wondering all week where i stand with you, and you alone. if i mean anything. if it meant anything.
god im such a girl.
so i guess ti have to allow myself to be brave enough to put it all on one bet.
even if my odds are low. and i get the feeling they may be. maybe?
i put myself all out there because im learning if i hold back, if i play the games
that quality i want wont even be a choice.