A few "FREAKIN FINALLY"-s
Life is pretty good right now~ Doing random things, going places, etc etc. Just trying not to drown myself in the worries I have hanging over my head c:
I successfully finished my poodle sculpture! FREAKIN FINALLY! I took way too much time on it just because I thought it wasn't my idea of perfect. 3 months in I realized that the piece doesn't and will not be perfect. All I need is for it to look nice enough so that the person its going to likes it.
And nice enough doesn't mean half-assing it so its good enough. Its just a way for me to stop obsessing over tiny little details and to get it done. Nine times out of ten these little details are barely noticeable when the damn thing's finished. hurr... So I need more practice in the 'good enough' area.
With the completion of the poodle, I was able to start a painting my mom wanted me to do (again.. FREAKING FINALLY). If I keep up a good pace, all my owed artworks will be done! I'm so glad I don't have a business. I'd be so fucked. D|
What makes all this arting possible is my lack of hours at work. It is the ultimate in cursed blessings. Its really awesome that I have a ton of time to work on my artwork, hang out with people, go downtown and the like but god fucking damn am I broke. Its not even that I want to go out and spend obscene amounts of money, I just want to pay my debt Dx. I am paying them and everything but it just gets my panties in a twist when I *have* to pay minimum >:! I was really used to putting at least $100 a week towards all my debts and all of them going down pretty quickly but now its quite different. Seeing as though I get paid somewhere around $100 to $150, I have to actually think about what I'm putting where Dx. Before my work-cut, I made automated transfers to take out $100 and pay things without me having to do anything. Now I'm down by a lot so I have to either do it manually or let a transfer go through and think "fuck, am I going to go into overdraft? DX". To be honest, its just me being a spoiled prissy face who doesn't like change. I have a place to live and food to eat and I'm paying all my bills and stuff on time. Thats doing better than some people.
I keep forgetting that this money situation is only going to last for another 2-3 months. In September I'm going to grooming academy and some time then or afterwards I'll be back at full time hours. Screw the commission-pay, I just want full time hours back! Then I'll be back to $250 to $300 again! Uugh, I can't freakin wait.
But with full time hours, I'd have to figure out how I'm going to get my artwork done. PetSmart may have me under contract for two years when I become a groomer, but after thats over I'm going to be plotting to live off my art. Working 5 days a week isn't going to make much time for that. This is why I try to enjoy the massive amount of free time I have now. My time is more precious than a big paycheck, I know this and I want to live by it. Unfortunately, I do forget sometimes (like now) and just wish for more hours. But I think I'll live with and live in my current situation. I am undeniably low on cash but luckily I have very supportive parents who constantly tell me to ask them for things if I need it. I forget that sometimes too.
Oh and you all should know the drill by now: LOOK AT MAH DRAGONZ
I'm only going to post the babies and eggs. I feel like my collection of adults is going to become overwhelming >_>;
I successfully finished my poodle sculpture! FREAKIN FINALLY! I took way too much time on it just because I thought it wasn't my idea of perfect. 3 months in I realized that the piece doesn't and will not be perfect. All I need is for it to look nice enough so that the person its going to likes it.
And nice enough doesn't mean half-assing it so its good enough. Its just a way for me to stop obsessing over tiny little details and to get it done. Nine times out of ten these little details are barely noticeable when the damn thing's finished. hurr... So I need more practice in the 'good enough' area.
With the completion of the poodle, I was able to start a painting my mom wanted me to do (again.. FREAKING FINALLY). If I keep up a good pace, all my owed artworks will be done! I'm so glad I don't have a business. I'd be so fucked. D|
What makes all this arting possible is my lack of hours at work. It is the ultimate in cursed blessings. Its really awesome that I have a ton of time to work on my artwork, hang out with people, go downtown and the like but god fucking damn am I broke. Its not even that I want to go out and spend obscene amounts of money, I just want to pay my debt Dx. I am paying them and everything but it just gets my panties in a twist when I *have* to pay minimum >:! I was really used to putting at least $100 a week towards all my debts and all of them going down pretty quickly but now its quite different. Seeing as though I get paid somewhere around $100 to $150, I have to actually think about what I'm putting where Dx. Before my work-cut, I made automated transfers to take out $100 and pay things without me having to do anything. Now I'm down by a lot so I have to either do it manually or let a transfer go through and think "fuck, am I going to go into overdraft? DX". To be honest, its just me being a spoiled prissy face who doesn't like change. I have a place to live and food to eat and I'm paying all my bills and stuff on time. Thats doing better than some people.
I keep forgetting that this money situation is only going to last for another 2-3 months. In September I'm going to grooming academy and some time then or afterwards I'll be back at full time hours. Screw the commission-pay, I just want full time hours back! Then I'll be back to $250 to $300 again! Uugh, I can't freakin wait.
But with full time hours, I'd have to figure out how I'm going to get my artwork done. PetSmart may have me under contract for two years when I become a groomer, but after thats over I'm going to be plotting to live off my art. Working 5 days a week isn't going to make much time for that. This is why I try to enjoy the massive amount of free time I have now. My time is more precious than a big paycheck, I know this and I want to live by it. Unfortunately, I do forget sometimes (like now) and just wish for more hours. But I think I'll live with and live in my current situation. I am undeniably low on cash but luckily I have very supportive parents who constantly tell me to ask them for things if I need it. I forget that sometimes too.
Oh and you all should know the drill by now: LOOK AT MAH DRAGONZ
I'm only going to post the babies and eggs. I feel like my collection of adults is going to become overwhelming >_>;