Can You Love Me?
Title: Can you love me?
Rating: PG
Pairing/Focus: oneside! Minho/Jonghyun, oneside! Jonghyun/Key, Onew/Key
Summary: Minho always protects Jonghyun, but Jonghyun end up hurting him
A/n: Well, I suck at summary.
-Minho-
We both sat on the couch, watching the drama that was showing. Both of us kept silence, not a single word came out. I wanted to stretch out my hands to touch you but when the distance became inches away, I stopped myself from moving on… I don’t know if I should pull you in even if I was hoping for it…
“Hyung, did you see what he did? It’s so funny.” I laughed trying to break the huge invincible silence between us but to no avail.
“Ya.” I couldn’t see how funny you think it was from your monotonous reply. I know your mind still couldn’t tear yourself away from thinking him… I know how it feels like hyung… Because when you were away, I can’t pull you out from my mind… Even if I close my eyes, all I see was your smile, your every expression that I had seen in my life...
It was late in the night, everyone finally decided to head back to bed and have a good night rest. I wanted to get myself a drink before going back to sleep, but before I even step in noises coming from the kitchen made me stop.
“Ahh… Jinki, not here…” It was Key… Was he whining?
“Don’t worry, everyone is in their bed sleeping. We have the whole night babe.” I didn’t dare to move forward to see it for myself what they were doing. I heard Key moaning Jinki’s name. I decided to turn back before I get myself noticed, but you came out from the bedroom. You were moving towards the kitchen, how can I let you see this? I quickly pulled you back into the room with me… But I was too late…
“Nnggg… Faster Jinki… Nnggg…” His voice tells you everything about their activity.
We both lay down on the same bed but took separate side of the bed. I couldn’t make myself fall asleep, because of your soft sobbing sound… It wasn’t irritating to hear it. It was just painful… I turned to look at your back, their sweet moment is breaking you apart right?
I moved myself behind you and hugged you tightly from behind. You didn’t pushed me away neither did you turned to face me. Hyung, just let me hold you tonight…. Let me use my warmth to hear your heart…
The next morning, you pretended as if nothing had happened last night… Your puffy red eyes were evidence to what had happened last night. You were smiling as you reply to Key’s question, saying excuses that sand got in your eyes… For goodness sake, is there even sand in the room? Sometime your lies were blind, but no one in the group wanted to break your little lies.
I kept silence and continue eating the breakfast, but my eyes never left you. I caught you staring at OnKey couple in their loving action, sorrow soon fills up your eyes. You excused yourself from the table without touching much that was on the plate. I quickly followed you behind. Actually because of my action, they always thought that you and I were together.
You stood still in our shared bedroom. I crept behind and repeated the same thing that happened last night. This time round I turned you around and press your head against my chest.
No matter how much I tried, I just couldn’t change you. Your eyes still stayed on him… Giving you warm will not make you love me… Tell me hyung… Tell me what should I do to get your love? I leaned my body on the wall and closed my eyes. I felt something took the space beside me. The shampoo fragrance, I know it him. I leaned on his shoulder. Were you treating me like this because I treat you like this? I looked at you, you weren’t looking me at all.
I moved myself closer, gently and lightly pressing on the corner of his lip. You moved away after sometime. You wanted to leave… I pulled your wrist to hold you back.
“Hyung, can you love me?” I know what I say may never help me to get you at all, it may even destroy our friendship… I fear of the day where you no longer talk to me… But I didn’t want this kind of relationship to go on… It’s hurts a lot… You didn’t turn to look at me, you were hesitating…
“You can reject me... But please, don’t… Don’t lie to your heart. Don’t lie to yourself.” I begged… It’s never a sin to love, neither is it a sin to reject someone love…
“Miahae… I can’t.” My finger slowly slips away from his wrist… I know I’ll never be able to hold you again like before, but I’ll die with no regrets…
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Fourth fanfic :]
Just want to thank those who read my fanfic =]
Rating: PG
Pairing/Focus: oneside! Minho/Jonghyun, oneside! Jonghyun/Key, Onew/Key
Summary: Minho always protects Jonghyun, but Jonghyun end up hurting him
A/n: Well, I suck at summary.
-Minho-
We both sat on the couch, watching the drama that was showing. Both of us kept silence, not a single word came out. I wanted to stretch out my hands to touch you but when the distance became inches away, I stopped myself from moving on… I don’t know if I should pull you in even if I was hoping for it…
“Hyung, did you see what he did? It’s so funny.” I laughed trying to break the huge invincible silence between us but to no avail.
“Ya.” I couldn’t see how funny you think it was from your monotonous reply. I know your mind still couldn’t tear yourself away from thinking him… I know how it feels like hyung… Because when you were away, I can’t pull you out from my mind… Even if I close my eyes, all I see was your smile, your every expression that I had seen in my life...
It was late in the night, everyone finally decided to head back to bed and have a good night rest. I wanted to get myself a drink before going back to sleep, but before I even step in noises coming from the kitchen made me stop.
“Ahh… Jinki, not here…” It was Key… Was he whining?
“Don’t worry, everyone is in their bed sleeping. We have the whole night babe.” I didn’t dare to move forward to see it for myself what they were doing. I heard Key moaning Jinki’s name. I decided to turn back before I get myself noticed, but you came out from the bedroom. You were moving towards the kitchen, how can I let you see this? I quickly pulled you back into the room with me… But I was too late…
“Nnggg… Faster Jinki… Nnggg…” His voice tells you everything about their activity.
We both lay down on the same bed but took separate side of the bed. I couldn’t make myself fall asleep, because of your soft sobbing sound… It wasn’t irritating to hear it. It was just painful… I turned to look at your back, their sweet moment is breaking you apart right?
I moved myself behind you and hugged you tightly from behind. You didn’t pushed me away neither did you turned to face me. Hyung, just let me hold you tonight…. Let me use my warmth to hear your heart…
The next morning, you pretended as if nothing had happened last night… Your puffy red eyes were evidence to what had happened last night. You were smiling as you reply to Key’s question, saying excuses that sand got in your eyes… For goodness sake, is there even sand in the room? Sometime your lies were blind, but no one in the group wanted to break your little lies.
I kept silence and continue eating the breakfast, but my eyes never left you. I caught you staring at OnKey couple in their loving action, sorrow soon fills up your eyes. You excused yourself from the table without touching much that was on the plate. I quickly followed you behind. Actually because of my action, they always thought that you and I were together.
You stood still in our shared bedroom. I crept behind and repeated the same thing that happened last night. This time round I turned you around and press your head against my chest.
No matter how much I tried, I just couldn’t change you. Your eyes still stayed on him… Giving you warm will not make you love me… Tell me hyung… Tell me what should I do to get your love? I leaned my body on the wall and closed my eyes. I felt something took the space beside me. The shampoo fragrance, I know it him. I leaned on his shoulder. Were you treating me like this because I treat you like this? I looked at you, you weren’t looking me at all.
I moved myself closer, gently and lightly pressing on the corner of his lip. You moved away after sometime. You wanted to leave… I pulled your wrist to hold you back.
“Hyung, can you love me?” I know what I say may never help me to get you at all, it may even destroy our friendship… I fear of the day where you no longer talk to me… But I didn’t want this kind of relationship to go on… It’s hurts a lot… You didn’t turn to look at me, you were hesitating…
“You can reject me... But please, don’t… Don’t lie to your heart. Don’t lie to yourself.” I begged… It’s never a sin to love, neither is it a sin to reject someone love…
“Miahae… I can’t.” My finger slowly slips away from his wrist… I know I’ll never be able to hold you again like before, but I’ll die with no regrets…
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Fourth fanfic :]
Just want to thank those who read my fanfic =]