Not Letting Go

[blackorchid1]

Not Letting Go

There is no other touch
  that feels so much like home
Like comfort
Like my skin
Touches her so deeply
That our skins are one skin
That we feel
Like it is like
Touching ourselves
In each other

There is no other smile
  that beams with so much love
Like twoo wuv
Like such strong connection
That our love is one love
That we feel
Like it is like
Loving ourselves
In each other

There is no other real
  that feels so incredibly genuine
Like truth
Like our unconscious
Is inexorably linked
That our selves are one self
That we feel
Like it is like
Linking ourselves
To each other

I could have let go
I can make my own way
But I have gifts I've
  yet to give
But I have laughs I've
 yet to laugh
I have vulnerability
 yet to explore
I have so much more
  of me
  to give

And if you can receive
  what I have to give
  with that loving smile
that generous heart
Then I will receive
  your loving gestures
  your warm embrace

Is it because I've never known
  anyone to be loved
  as you love me?
Is it because I know I can choose?
Is it because we could so freely talk
  about what's been wrong
  and right
  and stuck
  and enlightened
  and negatively reinforced
  and scared off
  and lost
  and found
  and hurt
  and healed
  and freed?

Freed from need
  for us to be something else
  or someone else
  or somewhere else

Because I did not know
You wanted
  me
Just me

And if we can get past
  all the hurts and wrongs
  and damage
We can be spectacular
Together