WOAH
1:24 AM.
WOOPS.
erm.
there are 40 unread messages in my yahoo folder labeled "college spam", and at least 20 others that have been briefly looked at.
god.
exciting, though. excessively. i guess. even though there are two years left and college is really not a sophomore priority.
i hate AIM because it's most likely scientifically impossible to concentrate fully on even three conversations at once. and it leaves me feeling so unfulfilled. but i signed on tonight and i'm talking to lora and thoughts are coming easily, which never happens.
maybe it's just that no one has time for anyone else at all...no one reaches outside themselves.
but.
i feel as if no one comes to me anymore. i always have to be the one to be like "wait, what's happening?" and then i feel as if i'm budging in on personal information or just information that no one genuinely wants me to know. people used to confide in me. now i don't know about anything and i don't know what it stems from. is it because i spend time with jake a lot? i didn't even know suzanne liked schmidty until about a month ago. that's a dumb example but. i just wonder why people seem so in tune with each other and i don't.
i don't talk on the phone because i don't like it. is that it?
no one is going to read this anyway because everyone is giving up on livejournal or they don't have working internet access.
am i unreachable? is that why i feel as if i'm the last thing people ever come to?
i'm not angry. i'm actually pretty content with life. but.
whatever.
goodnight before i run some more circles.
WOOPS.
erm.
there are 40 unread messages in my yahoo folder labeled "college spam", and at least 20 others that have been briefly looked at.
god.
exciting, though. excessively. i guess. even though there are two years left and college is really not a sophomore priority.
i hate AIM because it's most likely scientifically impossible to concentrate fully on even three conversations at once. and it leaves me feeling so unfulfilled. but i signed on tonight and i'm talking to lora and thoughts are coming easily, which never happens.
maybe it's just that no one has time for anyone else at all...no one reaches outside themselves.
but.
i feel as if no one comes to me anymore. i always have to be the one to be like "wait, what's happening?" and then i feel as if i'm budging in on personal information or just information that no one genuinely wants me to know. people used to confide in me. now i don't know about anything and i don't know what it stems from. is it because i spend time with jake a lot? i didn't even know suzanne liked schmidty until about a month ago. that's a dumb example but. i just wonder why people seem so in tune with each other and i don't.
i don't talk on the phone because i don't like it. is that it?
no one is going to read this anyway because everyone is giving up on livejournal or they don't have working internet access.
am i unreachable? is that why i feel as if i'm the last thing people ever come to?
i'm not angry. i'm actually pretty content with life. but.
whatever.
goodnight before i run some more circles.