john CHRISTIANSEN must die (i felt creative, lol)
okay, i'm sure by now most if not all of you know how much i despise the hell out of john, right? well, he messaged me on myspace the other day and this is the conversation (minus my reply which i'm keeping to myself) thus far. it kinda makes me wanna throttle something. i was a little dramatic in places, mostly to piss him off, and my reply to this last one was almost completely centered around the my family issues aren't that huge thing because he's stupid and has no clue. 'rei is the only one who REALLY has any clue as to how i live and i highly doubt she told him. but yeah, i'm just gonna leave it at this and here be the correspondence:
To be honest, the last threat doesn't scare me, as for being an arrogant jackass I'll give ya that, and in case you don't remember, I did ask what I did multiple times, but you never told me, and as for not having a good relationship with your family, that's not all the huge, I've known people who have it worse off than you, and perhaps it's good ya would have screamed it, you're kinda repressed, and also, I would like to add I don't ever recall calling you stupid as you may assume me for being since you felt the need to 'enlighten' me on a few things that are kinda obvious, as for the qoute you took from my first message, how do you know you didn't take it out of context? I didn't say that because I'm an arrogant jackass, which I'll be honest, I am, I said it because I was actually sorry, but I'm also the kind of person that you made your decision, that's fine with me I'll leave you with it, but you didn't really stop to think that it was hard for me to admit, because well, when I apologize shit like this happens, which is usually why I distant myself from people, because for the most part, I get fucked over in the end, and as for people being better than me in most people's eyes, that's half true, dispite your belief I do have at least a few friends that will stick by me, and as for the whole lack of a sense of humor, that's not true, I have a sense of humor it's just not some 'nice' sense of humor, and you can make all the judements about me you want, that shows arrogance in itself, for you see, without knowing much if even anything really about me, you spout all these crazy things, also well, where as I do know I shouldn't have made all the threats, I can't take it back, and saying I would be kind of, well stupid, because of the people I grew up around I became a little violent myself, stuff like that happens, and well, I'm also aware I can hold back, but one thing I don't like are the people who talk shit behind my back, I've lived with that for quite some time, and I'm tired of it so I over react to it, and where as I try not to do it, it still happens from my end too, well, anyway, that's my view on the whole thing if you even read it or care, anyways, have your opinion of me, you'd just be one more of the many that hate me, not my biggest problem.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: sam
Date: Aug 6, 2006 4:00 PM
"which for me to admit is actually rather rare"
okay, here's your problem. ^ right there. you're an arrogant jack ass. You should be able to admit it when you are wrong. but in this case, since i know you have no clue what you did because i didn't tell you and nobody else told you, you just make an ass of yourself by apologizing for who-knows-what. for all you know you could be apologizing for being ugly. you don't know. and if anything annoys me more than arrogant, stupid little bastards, it's people who apologize when they don't know what they did. because you always KNOW that they aren't really sorry. they can't be sorry for something they don't know they did. therefore, it's not really sincere in the way that most people would prefer. i was going to just delete this when i saw who it was from but decided i'd rather yell so feel lucky. although, in my opinion, most people are better than you, i know that in MOST people's eyes, the people you made fun of are better than you because atleast they ask what they did and apologize for it when they understand. Honestly, ***** (blanked out so as not to insult anyone) has on occasion asked what he did and then, as sincerely as he can muster, apologized. and take note: while most guys seem to think that apologizing always works on girls, it only really works on the stupid ones. I am not stupid. by any wild stretch of the imagination. i might have lapses in judgement, but i'm not some dumb bimbo whore who lets go of shit because some male (used as an insult here) says he is sorry. grow up and get a fucking sense of humor. learn to take insults like a normal person instead of hitting them or threatening to hurt them. Because, seriously, a VERY large portion of the reason i don't like you is because you threatened the one person i do, in fact, love. my family doesn't even like me so i have learned to distance myself from them. My dogs love me, but they are not people. another thing you should remember: never threaten the guy a girl even LIKES. it's stupid and more often than not pisses her off. and you may think you would have liked to say that in person, but all of this and probably a lot more that i have held back would have been screamed in very high decibels and rocks and sticks and such would have been thrown. i don't always miss. so you should be thankful i moved before i hurt you.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: No Dice
Date: Aug 2, 2006 8:54 PM
Uhh, hey, look I just wanted to apologize, I'm willing to admit I was a stupid ass, which for me to admit is actually rather rare, I would have liked to apologize in person but you moved before I could, and I was hoping we could still be friends.
-John
To be honest, the last threat doesn't scare me, as for being an arrogant jackass I'll give ya that, and in case you don't remember, I did ask what I did multiple times, but you never told me, and as for not having a good relationship with your family, that's not all the huge, I've known people who have it worse off than you, and perhaps it's good ya would have screamed it, you're kinda repressed, and also, I would like to add I don't ever recall calling you stupid as you may assume me for being since you felt the need to 'enlighten' me on a few things that are kinda obvious, as for the qoute you took from my first message, how do you know you didn't take it out of context? I didn't say that because I'm an arrogant jackass, which I'll be honest, I am, I said it because I was actually sorry, but I'm also the kind of person that you made your decision, that's fine with me I'll leave you with it, but you didn't really stop to think that it was hard for me to admit, because well, when I apologize shit like this happens, which is usually why I distant myself from people, because for the most part, I get fucked over in the end, and as for people being better than me in most people's eyes, that's half true, dispite your belief I do have at least a few friends that will stick by me, and as for the whole lack of a sense of humor, that's not true, I have a sense of humor it's just not some 'nice' sense of humor, and you can make all the judements about me you want, that shows arrogance in itself, for you see, without knowing much if even anything really about me, you spout all these crazy things, also well, where as I do know I shouldn't have made all the threats, I can't take it back, and saying I would be kind of, well stupid, because of the people I grew up around I became a little violent myself, stuff like that happens, and well, I'm also aware I can hold back, but one thing I don't like are the people who talk shit behind my back, I've lived with that for quite some time, and I'm tired of it so I over react to it, and where as I try not to do it, it still happens from my end too, well, anyway, that's my view on the whole thing if you even read it or care, anyways, have your opinion of me, you'd just be one more of the many that hate me, not my biggest problem.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: sam
Date: Aug 6, 2006 4:00 PM
"which for me to admit is actually rather rare"
okay, here's your problem. ^ right there. you're an arrogant jack ass. You should be able to admit it when you are wrong. but in this case, since i know you have no clue what you did because i didn't tell you and nobody else told you, you just make an ass of yourself by apologizing for who-knows-what. for all you know you could be apologizing for being ugly. you don't know. and if anything annoys me more than arrogant, stupid little bastards, it's people who apologize when they don't know what they did. because you always KNOW that they aren't really sorry. they can't be sorry for something they don't know they did. therefore, it's not really sincere in the way that most people would prefer. i was going to just delete this when i saw who it was from but decided i'd rather yell so feel lucky. although, in my opinion, most people are better than you, i know that in MOST people's eyes, the people you made fun of are better than you because atleast they ask what they did and apologize for it when they understand. Honestly, ***** (blanked out so as not to insult anyone) has on occasion asked what he did and then, as sincerely as he can muster, apologized. and take note: while most guys seem to think that apologizing always works on girls, it only really works on the stupid ones. I am not stupid. by any wild stretch of the imagination. i might have lapses in judgement, but i'm not some dumb bimbo whore who lets go of shit because some male (used as an insult here) says he is sorry. grow up and get a fucking sense of humor. learn to take insults like a normal person instead of hitting them or threatening to hurt them. Because, seriously, a VERY large portion of the reason i don't like you is because you threatened the one person i do, in fact, love. my family doesn't even like me so i have learned to distance myself from them. My dogs love me, but they are not people. another thing you should remember: never threaten the guy a girl even LIKES. it's stupid and more often than not pisses her off. and you may think you would have liked to say that in person, but all of this and probably a lot more that i have held back would have been screamed in very high decibels and rocks and sticks and such would have been thrown. i don't always miss. so you should be thankful i moved before i hurt you.
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: No Dice
Date: Aug 2, 2006 8:54 PM
Uhh, hey, look I just wanted to apologize, I'm willing to admit I was a stupid ass, which for me to admit is actually rather rare, I would have liked to apologize in person but you moved before I could, and I was hoping we could still be friends.
-John