5.10 Abandon All Hope, part 3/3
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80. The guys are still trying to figure out how to get it all done and still come out on the side where they get to use the Colt on the Devil and not get mauled to death and...
81. ... hand it to a woman to figure out what needs REALLY to be done and to just come out and say it, even though nobody will agree with her.
82. The whole time Jo was talking and Ellen was arguing with her, I felt so bad for both of them and yet... you knew that Jo was right and there really was no arguing it. The look on Dean's face, that he's so proud of her and that he sees her as a hunter and an equal FINALLY, he's not just treating her that way because it's what she deserves but he really believes it now, with the added weight of realizing that he's loved her for a long time without wanting to admit it to himself and knowing that he's realized all of it too late... and just.
Yeah.
*jumps off a cliff*
83. Does every daughter get this look on her face when they see that they are finally an adult in their parent's eyes? Because I know I did.
84. This is Sam's goodbye. He holds her hand tight and covers it as much as he can, like he is saying that he's sorry that he couldn't protect her any better than it ending like this, that he wants to comfort her and he isn't really sure how to do it or what to leave off with. He only gets up when Dean comes back, so that she's never alone.
85. This is Dean's goodbye. He arms her with the bomb she wanted. He still has to live long enough to find Lucifer and plug him full of holes, but at least he got to give her something to let her know that her death isn't in vain. Without her, he wouldn't even make it out of the freakin' building.
86. She may have told her mom that it was because they had to give the old college try to killing the Devil, but the truth is... she did it because she loves Dean. She wants him and Sam to live longer than the next 5 minutes, which is how long they all would have lasted outside in a token attempt to save her life.
87. His hands hold her hand up. He cradles it.
88. He would gladly be the one to stay here with her if it was all they had left. If I were in love with this guy and I was gonna die so that he'd live just a little longer and if he looked at me like that... I'd revel in it and hope that it means what it looks like it means.
89. Which made this kiss so easy to understand. He loves her like the sister he never had, like a comrade, an equal, someone he respects and....
...would never use as a witless sacrifice.
90. As much as that kiss is, it's not quite enough for her, but she hides it well. He pulls away and looks at her again, and sees it anyway... and answers her with his heart. Yes. Yes, I love you.
NSJDHGOSHD:LKNCKJGSODIHOISDGOSNDG AND YOU KNOW WHAT?!
POSJDPGOJG. YES. SO THERE. *is a sobbing mess*
91. I don't know about you guys, but she looks relieved. OMG. *raids the kleenex*
92. Ellen crouches down like she's going to tell her daughter goodbye and as soon as her knees hit the floor, the look in her eyes is, "how crazy that it ever crossed my mind that I would leave here without her."
93. They have to go but their legs are probably weighing about 400 pounds each, with all that darkness in front of them. Their voices are already full of defeat before they ever try to convince her to leave. Silly. You wouldn't leave each other, now, would you?
94. "Don't miss. Oh, and Dean. Kick it in the ass."
My hands were already both wiping at my mouth and there were tears starting down my face and when she said that ... I just lost it.
95. Just from an acting perspective for a second, at which I am no expert, but this expression is solid gold.
96. *just breathes* ... *and cries really quietly* (Yes, every time. Still.)
97. From someone who gets tunnel vision way too often, yep, this is pretty much what it looks like, distortion and color change and all. Seeing it from the monster's perspective here seems a bit gratuitous and with everything that's happened to Jo and Ellen, we're ready to hate these hell hound bitches. We don't even stop to think what they might have been before they lost more than Ellen is losing here.
98. The way she keeps talking to Jo, out past her last breath, it made me imagine a time when she probably would chatter on in her head to her Bill about inventory or what Jo had done that day and I wonder if she heard Bill's voice talking back to her, prodding her along in her daily grind at the Roadhouse, vehement that if he were around, they wouldn't be running out of pretzels all of the time, and I imagine her grabbing her keys and leaving for supplies with his words ringing in her ears ... just long enough to escape the explosion. How fitting it was that she might have missed that one because of him so that she could be in this one with their girl.
99. We know, Dean. We know.
100. They're all just standing there and Lucifer is doing all the work. Somebody asked me if he was such a bad guy, then wouldn't he have put the slave demons to work? I say no for two reasons: 1) Traditional sacrifices - which these clearly are - are not subjected to manual labor. They are treated with distance and respect and in some cases literally fattened for slaughter to please the god. 2) The kind of people who think they have to do everything themselves because they don't trust anyone else to do it right are the ones who end up alone in their madness.
101. Sam and Dean don't have any last words.
They have lived through so many moments like this and every time it happens, they go into it thinking it will be the last one and it never is. They don't even need to say I love you, he already knows. They don't need to say how pissed off they are that they're here again, he already knows.
102. What I want to know is how fast he was digging before Sam and Dean got there, that he's buried an entire town's worth of (previously possessed and now dead) women and children. Or was it an old war trench and they just fell in there voluntarily and how he's just making a show of shoveling a couple piles of dirt? Could I be more macabre? No.
103. Luciphat: "Oh hai, Sammeh. I broughted you a bloody burger, but I eated it."
Sammeh: "You're doin' it wrong. It's bringded."
Deano: "Eat THIS, Basement Cat."
Dear Dean,
I just want you to know that the first time I saw you raise that gun, my arms went like this \0/ and I said, "Woo! Suck it!" and then YOU said, "SUCK IT", and I nearly fell off the couch.
-Lid, who was totally woo and \0/
104. What truly sucks is that I could see on their faces they were trying not to get excited because there was NO WAI it could be that easy. Sadly, they were right.
105. Here I am, admitting openly and honestly that when I hear The Devil Who Walks The Earth groan and say, "Oooowwwwwwww"... it makes me LAWL.
106. "My bad. When I threw him, I wasn't trying to kill him. I can't kill him anyway. They'll just bring him back. Kinda like me. Huh. He should know better than to bring a gun to a knife fight."
107. I was afraid of that. Didn't this very same thing happen to Dean the last time he tried to kill a demon with the Colt in a graveyard? It's like a bad acid flashback... not that I would know that first hand.
108. When Lucifer said that there are only five things that the Colt cannot kill and he was one of them, I started doing the math and quickly got confused. Do the four Horsemen count as one thing?
109. Which made it all even more BIZARRE that Lucifer came right out and asked Sam to say yes and save them both a lot of trouble. What has he possibly done, besides say, promise to never hurt him and then promptly throw Dean into a tree and almost kills him, be the cause of Jo and Ellen's demise and Castiel's disappearance, and slay an entire town... I mean, those are so such nitpicky things to worry about, am I right?
I mean, it's not like Sam's never hit Dean, or been the cause of his friend's demise, or wished Castiel would disappear, or been smack in the middle of an entire town as it died around him. Meh.
110. Sam is going to rip his heart out.
Dear Sam,
I think you're on the right track with that line of thought, but I've often wondered if you remember all the times that ripping someone's heart out and tasting the iron in their blood also has to do with people, the people who are closest to you, dying.
-Lid, who feels like checking Dean for a pulse
P.S. It's your party and you can cry if you want to, but getting all bent of shape like that never did anybody any good. Don't feed the troll, Sam.
111. He's so sure that it's going to happen in Detroit that he feels the need to ask now, too, JUST IN CASE.
112. Dean wakes up just in time to see the sacrifice of the townsmen to raise the Horseman.
Dear Dean,
Leaving the Colt aside (I'll help you strangle Crowley), you know all the times you two have had any luck defeating the bad guys, it's been on ground like this? Sacred ground? Made special by the innocent deaths surrounding you? I bet if it crossed your mind at all, that you thought the deaths of an entire town would be more than enough karmic points to put him back in the hole forever. I guess that means it was the wrong sacrifice... as in, the wrong place.
-Lid
P.S. I think it'll happen in Detroit. Just a hunch.
113. "In nomine patri, et fili, spiritu that other guy on the third row down and to the left on the main aisle who only comes on Easter. Om nom nom."
114. "Repeat after me. YES."
Oooohhh. So because he's an angel, he has to get them to agree, but it's never specific about HOW he gets them to say yes. This is a lot faster than Zachariah's solution of torture. I watched them all drop, one by one, and I saw the people inside die, too, even though it was their mouths saying yes, they wouldn't have. They wanted to live. It made me think of all the deaths that Sam and Dean have perpetuated with their quick work of demons in the pursuit of winning a battle with their chosen enemy... and how much that bothered Sam once upon a time, until very recently, like in Crowley's driveway, for example.
"Whaaaaaat? They're just demons."
AHHOOWWWW. BURN.
115. "Every time a bell rings, I get a Golden Ticket!"
116. Cas has been biding his time working on his pipe, workin on layin it out and hittin dat lady wit it, hittin dat rump wit it... layin dat pipe.... ahem. What?
He can't save the woman, which is the VERY FIRST thing he tries to do, which would -- think about it guys -- LEAVE HIM stranded in the circle of flames and leave Sam and Dean on the battlefield to watch Death rise and probably die (again -- but it's still not fun) or even worse, say yes to something they don't wanna say yes to. But he can't do it. His mojo isn't working without the power of the collective and that sucks because now the insurance companies will be able to cut him for having a preexisting condition. Oh, wait.
117. The next best thing to saving the woman is killing the demon. If the woman inside had to choose dying over being used as a puppet to perpetuate more evil, I'm pretty sure she'd be okay with death being the only choice. Whether Meg actually dies here, though, is a tad ambiguous.
I personally don't think she did, but that body seems to be out of commission for a demon if it gets burned in holy oil; at best, she's shopping for new meat after she escapes the fire by leaving the body... that is, if she CAN leave. ... I'm so confused.
118. Castiel comes to rescue the boys just in time to not see Death rise. I'm glad they don't have to be there for that.
119. Would ANYONE survive in the presence of Death except ... people who are already dead?
... WHAAAAAT? *shifty eyes* Don't look at me like that. It's not MY fault.
120. Oh dear heaven, their shot glasses are still sitting there. Does this really need words? No. I think not.
Goodnight.
80. The guys are still trying to figure out how to get it all done and still come out on the side where they get to use the Colt on the Devil and not get mauled to death and...
81. ... hand it to a woman to figure out what needs REALLY to be done and to just come out and say it, even though nobody will agree with her.
82. The whole time Jo was talking and Ellen was arguing with her, I felt so bad for both of them and yet... you knew that Jo was right and there really was no arguing it. The look on Dean's face, that he's so proud of her and that he sees her as a hunter and an equal FINALLY, he's not just treating her that way because it's what she deserves but he really believes it now, with the added weight of realizing that he's loved her for a long time without wanting to admit it to himself and knowing that he's realized all of it too late... and just.
Yeah.
*jumps off a cliff*
83. Does every daughter get this look on her face when they see that they are finally an adult in their parent's eyes? Because I know I did.
84. This is Sam's goodbye. He holds her hand tight and covers it as much as he can, like he is saying that he's sorry that he couldn't protect her any better than it ending like this, that he wants to comfort her and he isn't really sure how to do it or what to leave off with. He only gets up when Dean comes back, so that she's never alone.
85. This is Dean's goodbye. He arms her with the bomb she wanted. He still has to live long enough to find Lucifer and plug him full of holes, but at least he got to give her something to let her know that her death isn't in vain. Without her, he wouldn't even make it out of the freakin' building.
86. She may have told her mom that it was because they had to give the old college try to killing the Devil, but the truth is... she did it because she loves Dean. She wants him and Sam to live longer than the next 5 minutes, which is how long they all would have lasted outside in a token attempt to save her life.
87. His hands hold her hand up. He cradles it.
88. He would gladly be the one to stay here with her if it was all they had left. If I were in love with this guy and I was gonna die so that he'd live just a little longer and if he looked at me like that... I'd revel in it and hope that it means what it looks like it means.
89. Which made this kiss so easy to understand. He loves her like the sister he never had, like a comrade, an equal, someone he respects and....
...would never use as a witless sacrifice.
90. As much as that kiss is, it's not quite enough for her, but she hides it well. He pulls away and looks at her again, and sees it anyway... and answers her with his heart. Yes. Yes, I love you.
NSJDHGOSHD:LKNCKJGSODIHOISDGOSNDG AND YOU KNOW WHAT?!
POSJDPGOJG. YES. SO THERE. *is a sobbing mess*
91. I don't know about you guys, but she looks relieved. OMG. *raids the kleenex*
92. Ellen crouches down like she's going to tell her daughter goodbye and as soon as her knees hit the floor, the look in her eyes is, "how crazy that it ever crossed my mind that I would leave here without her."
93. They have to go but their legs are probably weighing about 400 pounds each, with all that darkness in front of them. Their voices are already full of defeat before they ever try to convince her to leave. Silly. You wouldn't leave each other, now, would you?
94. "Don't miss. Oh, and Dean. Kick it in the ass."
My hands were already both wiping at my mouth and there were tears starting down my face and when she said that ... I just lost it.
95. Just from an acting perspective for a second, at which I am no expert, but this expression is solid gold.
96. *just breathes* ... *and cries really quietly* (Yes, every time. Still.)
97. From someone who gets tunnel vision way too often, yep, this is pretty much what it looks like, distortion and color change and all. Seeing it from the monster's perspective here seems a bit gratuitous and with everything that's happened to Jo and Ellen, we're ready to hate these hell hound bitches. We don't even stop to think what they might have been before they lost more than Ellen is losing here.
98. The way she keeps talking to Jo, out past her last breath, it made me imagine a time when she probably would chatter on in her head to her Bill about inventory or what Jo had done that day and I wonder if she heard Bill's voice talking back to her, prodding her along in her daily grind at the Roadhouse, vehement that if he were around, they wouldn't be running out of pretzels all of the time, and I imagine her grabbing her keys and leaving for supplies with his words ringing in her ears ... just long enough to escape the explosion. How fitting it was that she might have missed that one because of him so that she could be in this one with their girl.
99. We know, Dean. We know.
100. They're all just standing there and Lucifer is doing all the work. Somebody asked me if he was such a bad guy, then wouldn't he have put the slave demons to work? I say no for two reasons: 1) Traditional sacrifices - which these clearly are - are not subjected to manual labor. They are treated with distance and respect and in some cases literally fattened for slaughter to please the god. 2) The kind of people who think they have to do everything themselves because they don't trust anyone else to do it right are the ones who end up alone in their madness.
101. Sam and Dean don't have any last words.
They have lived through so many moments like this and every time it happens, they go into it thinking it will be the last one and it never is. They don't even need to say I love you, he already knows. They don't need to say how pissed off they are that they're here again, he already knows.
102. What I want to know is how fast he was digging before Sam and Dean got there, that he's buried an entire town's worth of (previously possessed and now dead) women and children. Or was it an old war trench and they just fell in there voluntarily and how he's just making a show of shoveling a couple piles of dirt? Could I be more macabre? No.
103. Luciphat: "Oh hai, Sammeh. I broughted you a bloody burger, but I eated it."
Sammeh: "You're doin' it wrong. It's bringded."
Deano: "Eat THIS, Basement Cat."
Dear Dean,
I just want you to know that the first time I saw you raise that gun, my arms went like this \0/ and I said, "Woo! Suck it!" and then YOU said, "SUCK IT", and I nearly fell off the couch.
-Lid, who was totally woo and \0/
104. What truly sucks is that I could see on their faces they were trying not to get excited because there was NO WAI it could be that easy. Sadly, they were right.
105. Here I am, admitting openly and honestly that when I hear The Devil Who Walks The Earth groan and say, "Oooowwwwwwww"... it makes me LAWL.
106. "My bad. When I threw him, I wasn't trying to kill him. I can't kill him anyway. They'll just bring him back. Kinda like me. Huh. He should know better than to bring a gun to a knife fight."
107. I was afraid of that. Didn't this very same thing happen to Dean the last time he tried to kill a demon with the Colt in a graveyard? It's like a bad acid flashback... not that I would know that first hand.
108. When Lucifer said that there are only five things that the Colt cannot kill and he was one of them, I started doing the math and quickly got confused. Do the four Horsemen count as one thing?
109. Which made it all even more BIZARRE that Lucifer came right out and asked Sam to say yes and save them both a lot of trouble. What has he possibly done, besides say, promise to never hurt him and then promptly throw Dean into a tree and almost kills him, be the cause of Jo and Ellen's demise and Castiel's disappearance, and slay an entire town... I mean, those are so such nitpicky things to worry about, am I right?
I mean, it's not like Sam's never hit Dean, or been the cause of his friend's demise, or wished Castiel would disappear, or been smack in the middle of an entire town as it died around him. Meh.
110. Sam is going to rip his heart out.
Dear Sam,
I think you're on the right track with that line of thought, but I've often wondered if you remember all the times that ripping someone's heart out and tasting the iron in their blood also has to do with people, the people who are closest to you, dying.
-Lid, who feels like checking Dean for a pulse
P.S. It's your party and you can cry if you want to, but getting all bent of shape like that never did anybody any good. Don't feed the troll, Sam.
111. He's so sure that it's going to happen in Detroit that he feels the need to ask now, too, JUST IN CASE.
112. Dean wakes up just in time to see the sacrifice of the townsmen to raise the Horseman.
Dear Dean,
Leaving the Colt aside (I'll help you strangle Crowley), you know all the times you two have had any luck defeating the bad guys, it's been on ground like this? Sacred ground? Made special by the innocent deaths surrounding you? I bet if it crossed your mind at all, that you thought the deaths of an entire town would be more than enough karmic points to put him back in the hole forever. I guess that means it was the wrong sacrifice... as in, the wrong place.
-Lid
P.S. I think it'll happen in Detroit. Just a hunch.
113. "In nomine patri, et fili, spiritu that other guy on the third row down and to the left on the main aisle who only comes on Easter. Om nom nom."
114. "Repeat after me. YES."
Oooohhh. So because he's an angel, he has to get them to agree, but it's never specific about HOW he gets them to say yes. This is a lot faster than Zachariah's solution of torture. I watched them all drop, one by one, and I saw the people inside die, too, even though it was their mouths saying yes, they wouldn't have. They wanted to live. It made me think of all the deaths that Sam and Dean have perpetuated with their quick work of demons in the pursuit of winning a battle with their chosen enemy... and how much that bothered Sam once upon a time, until very recently, like in Crowley's driveway, for example.
"Whaaaaaat? They're just demons."
AHHOOWWWW. BURN.
115. "Every time a bell rings, I get a Golden Ticket!"
116. Cas has been biding his time working on his pipe, workin on layin it out and hittin dat lady wit it, hittin dat rump wit it... layin dat pipe.... ahem. What?
He can't save the woman, which is the VERY FIRST thing he tries to do, which would -- think about it guys -- LEAVE HIM stranded in the circle of flames and leave Sam and Dean on the battlefield to watch Death rise and probably die (again -- but it's still not fun) or even worse, say yes to something they don't wanna say yes to. But he can't do it. His mojo isn't working without the power of the collective and that sucks because now the insurance companies will be able to cut him for having a preexisting condition. Oh, wait.
117. The next best thing to saving the woman is killing the demon. If the woman inside had to choose dying over being used as a puppet to perpetuate more evil, I'm pretty sure she'd be okay with death being the only choice. Whether Meg actually dies here, though, is a tad ambiguous.
I personally don't think she did, but that body seems to be out of commission for a demon if it gets burned in holy oil; at best, she's shopping for new meat after she escapes the fire by leaving the body... that is, if she CAN leave. ... I'm so confused.
118. Castiel comes to rescue the boys just in time to not see Death rise. I'm glad they don't have to be there for that.
119. Would ANYONE survive in the presence of Death except ... people who are already dead?
... WHAAAAAT? *shifty eyes* Don't look at me like that. It's not MY fault.
120. Oh dear heaven, their shot glasses are still sitting there. Does this really need words? No. I think not.
Goodnight.