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two more days! yay! i still dont know what im doing. i dont expect much from anyone really, its leading up to be a very anticlimactic day. everyone says 18 is so glorious and this and that and what not, so far its been nothing but hell. technically im still 17 but im gettin bombarded all over by the "i'm 18" stuff. not too much fun.
hey little sister
i heard you went to mr so and so
knock knock knocking on his door again last night
said you needed it bad
now you that aint right
my little sister is a zombie in a body with no soul or role
she has learned to play when nothing else matters
but it matters
we gotta start feeding our souls
not our addictions or afflictions of pain
to avoid the same questions we must ask ourselves to get any answers
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if it makes you less sad / i will die by your hand / i hope you find out what you want / i already know what i am / and if it makes you less sad / i will start talking again / if you tell me how vile / i already know that i am
i'll grow old / start acting my age / i'll be a brand new day / in a life that you hate / a crown of gold / a heart thats harder than stone / and it hurts a whole lot / but its been missed when its gone / call me a safe bet / i'm betting that i'm not / i'm glad that you can forgive / i'm just hoping as time goes on that you can forget / if it makes you less sad / i'll move out of the state / you can keep to yourself, i'll stay out of your way / and if it makes you less sad / i'll take your pictures all down / every picture you paint i will paint myself out / its as cold as a tomb and / its dark in your room / when i sneak to your bed and / pour salt in your wounds / so call it quits or get a grip / Say you wanted a solution / You just wanted to be missed / Call me a safe bet / I'm betting I'm not / I'm glad that you can forgive / I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget / You are calm and reposed / Let your beauty unfold / Pale white, like the skin stretched over your bones / Spring keeps you ever close / You are second hand smoke / You are so fragile and thin / Standing trial for your sins / Holding onto yourself the best you can / You are the smell before rain / You are the blood in my veins / Call me a safe bet / I'm betting I'm not / I'm glad that you can forgive / I'm only hoping as time goes, you can forget.
the boy who blocked his own shot--brand new