high fidelity
being away for so long makes you think a lot.
about everything.
and you think you really want to get away from everything and just leave the country for a few months, but being away from people makes you miss more people even more.
it's also made me think a lot about past friendships, and how shittly friendships have ended with supposed "best friends."
and i guess thats just how things happen when you grow older. but it just doesn't seem right to me.
i don't remember past problems, or why things ended badly like they did in some cases. i mean, some things stand out, but others, i don't remember, and it's real foggy.
i shouldn't feel like this on my birthday, this isn't right.
people change. and maybe i... i just don't know.
i feel like this is another unfinished thought.
but these dreams, they need to end.
this cyclical dream of me being best friends with this one person again.. i don't know what it is, or why it is.
and then other dreams i have, i hate a different person, and clearly, that is one wound i don't want to open again. but that first one, i still feel like it's on shaky ground.
ughhhh.
about everything.
and you think you really want to get away from everything and just leave the country for a few months, but being away from people makes you miss more people even more.
it's also made me think a lot about past friendships, and how shittly friendships have ended with supposed "best friends."
and i guess thats just how things happen when you grow older. but it just doesn't seem right to me.
i don't remember past problems, or why things ended badly like they did in some cases. i mean, some things stand out, but others, i don't remember, and it's real foggy.
i shouldn't feel like this on my birthday, this isn't right.
people change. and maybe i... i just don't know.
i feel like this is another unfinished thought.
but these dreams, they need to end.
this cyclical dream of me being best friends with this one person again.. i don't know what it is, or why it is.
and then other dreams i have, i hate a different person, and clearly, that is one wound i don't want to open again. but that first one, i still feel like it's on shaky ground.
ughhhh.