..the closest thing to perfect but the farthest thing from me

[blackfiregodess]

I've been getting depressed over nothing again lately. I changed a lot over the past two years; I thought it was for the better, and in some ways it was, but now I realize there were also some bad things about it. There's always something wrong. I'm always changing; this summer I care less...about what people think, about how I look..about

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On the hard things in life....

[arawn]

I can relate, hands down, to just about everything you're saying. The acting your age thing? Definatly. Anyhow, as much as I'd like to advise and asist, I'm in the same situation, but I'll give you the advice that a friend of mine gave me once, maybe it'll help: You don't need to compromise either side of yourself to both have fun and be smart. Some friendships are deep meaningful ones where you discuss Poe over candle light and try to solve the problems of the nation, and others involve discussing Sponge Bob over Coke and Rum; they're both good and they're both necessairy, it's just a matter of accepting it. Besides, I'm willing to bet that there's a 'Fun' you just under your skin, begging to break free. You've just gotta' let go. Let the motto of the moment be "Fuck it." As for the boy: You neeed to tell him how you feel. He has a right to know, I think. Besides, it's not like he's going to move away and never talk to you again. There's always the future and if he genuinly cares for you that's not going to change.

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