oh god anything but coffee
It's amazing how much life can change in such a short period of time.
Megan visited over the summer. That was what I was referencing in the last entry, for those of you who were wondering. We had an absolutely amazing time together. It was better than either of us ever could have imagined. We resolved so many issues and things were left as they should be. We're together again, and stronger than ever. Things haven't felt this right in years. The entire month of July was a whirlwind. Patrick, Nate, Shawn and I had a blast together. The time spent with Megan was absolutely amazing. We went to Carowinds, ate out about three times a day, slept until two in the afternoon, and drank and smoke like no tomorrow.
Shawn left for Florida a few days ago. He'll be back in December, but fuck, it's so weird not having him around every day.
I really do have amazing friends. I can't stress that enough.
Patrick got me a job at Starbucks and I lasted all of three days. As soon as I got home after the first day I started having panic attacks, which I haven't had in years and years. It was a fight just to keep my breakfast down when I went into that place. Everyone was really nice to me but I just couldn't handle it. Food services are not for me. I feel really shitty about it because I keep thinking I let so many people down...I really tried, though. I'm going to have to get a job in retail or something. Now I realize how fucking easy working at Hot Topic was.
As I write this I'm just trying to gather my wits. My nerves have been shot and my stomach in a constant knot for the past week or so. I'm taking a breath before I start putting in applications at different places. I'm sure I'll be fine stocking or something of the such. I can deal with people but not with making beverages I know absolutely nothing about.
Evangelion broke up. Still not quite sure what happened there, but I'm already working on another project, something much heavier.
I'm technically still a member of the Fast Boys but I haven't even seen any of those fuckers in about a month.
Whatever. Punk kids, what the fuck can you do with them?
But yeah. Wow. I love Megan. She butters my bread. <333
More updates and thoughts coming soon. Sorry for the delay.
Megan visited over the summer. That was what I was referencing in the last entry, for those of you who were wondering. We had an absolutely amazing time together. It was better than either of us ever could have imagined. We resolved so many issues and things were left as they should be. We're together again, and stronger than ever. Things haven't felt this right in years. The entire month of July was a whirlwind. Patrick, Nate, Shawn and I had a blast together. The time spent with Megan was absolutely amazing. We went to Carowinds, ate out about three times a day, slept until two in the afternoon, and drank and smoke like no tomorrow.
Shawn left for Florida a few days ago. He'll be back in December, but fuck, it's so weird not having him around every day.
I really do have amazing friends. I can't stress that enough.
Patrick got me a job at Starbucks and I lasted all of three days. As soon as I got home after the first day I started having panic attacks, which I haven't had in years and years. It was a fight just to keep my breakfast down when I went into that place. Everyone was really nice to me but I just couldn't handle it. Food services are not for me. I feel really shitty about it because I keep thinking I let so many people down...I really tried, though. I'm going to have to get a job in retail or something. Now I realize how fucking easy working at Hot Topic was.
As I write this I'm just trying to gather my wits. My nerves have been shot and my stomach in a constant knot for the past week or so. I'm taking a breath before I start putting in applications at different places. I'm sure I'll be fine stocking or something of the such. I can deal with people but not with making beverages I know absolutely nothing about.
Evangelion broke up. Still not quite sure what happened there, but I'm already working on another project, something much heavier.
I'm technically still a member of the Fast Boys but I haven't even seen any of those fuckers in about a month.
Whatever. Punk kids, what the fuck can you do with them?
But yeah. Wow. I love Megan. She butters my bread. <333
More updates and thoughts coming soon. Sorry for the delay.