shit sucks right now. My wrist is mad swollen and bruised from falling at work on monday, my grandfather has brain cancer, there is a family meeting tomorrow and im living alone. fucking christ.

so I am now living in my house alone. this is soooo fucked up.

Hooray for days off. Yesterday morning I woke up to my cat who was wicked sick. Now he's in the hospital. It's weird, him not being in the house. The last time I felt this was with my dogs, and when I took apollo to the hospital it was the first time I've been there since my dogs. It's not easy ( Read more... )

FUCK. I had a bad day.

So I just had a really strange dream. It started at an airport and we were going to the netherlands. So we get into this blimp-looking thing, and che and I end up sitting next to a man who is a teacher, however, he was my 11th grade history teacher--very beautiful. So, we are in this contraption, which has nothing to do with an airplane, and as we ( Read more... )

ahhhhh fuck you fuck you fuck you!

No work and no friends make tara go CRAZY!

Being home is strange. It makes me think about you, makes me miss you, and want you. it sucks.

I feel totally lost. From myself, and from everyone else. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm trying really hard and getting really good grades but I don't know if I know what for anymore. I have lost something in myself, I don't even know if I know myself, or if I do, where did it go, and why is it gone. I can't figure it out and I can't move ( Read more... )

I was up until 8 am cleaning my entire house. BUT, it looks beautiful and I am off the the sox game. SO excited!