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So I guess that's it. He'll be okay. He won't even miss me in a few weeks.
I'm leaving UCF after this semester. I'm going to take Spring Semester off, and then I'm going to UF for the fall. It's too late to apply to UF for the Spring. I'm going to live with Debby, and pay less rent. I will also work more, and make more money. I'm okay with that. Assuming that I get into UF.
To you: I will miss you. And I love you. You will always be a huge part of my life, and I will never forget you. I'm sorry that I failed you, and that I failed us. I'm sorry. Forgive me. I wish it didn't have to be this way, but there comes a time when you just have to give up. When you can't keep trying anymore. When you're hurting too much and not feeling enough happiness. I'm sorry I gave up.
I work tomorrow at ECP. That should help me take my mind off things.
I don't know where I'm sleeping tonight. Or during the month of November. I guess I have no choice but to stay at Debby's and just drive back and forth. That's $280 down the drain. I asked Katrina if she wants to wait until December to move in. If she doesn't, then I have to move out in November, because I might not get another chance at this. She hasn't replied back yet.
A couple people interested in Roxy. We'll see how that goes.
I'm gonna go throw up now.
I'm leaving UCF after this semester. I'm going to take Spring Semester off, and then I'm going to UF for the fall. It's too late to apply to UF for the Spring. I'm going to live with Debby, and pay less rent. I will also work more, and make more money. I'm okay with that. Assuming that I get into UF.
To you: I will miss you. And I love you. You will always be a huge part of my life, and I will never forget you. I'm sorry that I failed you, and that I failed us. I'm sorry. Forgive me. I wish it didn't have to be this way, but there comes a time when you just have to give up. When you can't keep trying anymore. When you're hurting too much and not feeling enough happiness. I'm sorry I gave up.
I work tomorrow at ECP. That should help me take my mind off things.
I don't know where I'm sleeping tonight. Or during the month of November. I guess I have no choice but to stay at Debby's and just drive back and forth. That's $280 down the drain. I asked Katrina if she wants to wait until December to move in. If she doesn't, then I have to move out in November, because I might not get another chance at this. She hasn't replied back yet.
A couple people interested in Roxy. We'll see how that goes.
I'm gonna go throw up now.