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So...the whole RENT plan didn't work exactly as planned. I did get the tickets...and they are good...but I'm not seeing it with Lucy because she's already seen it twice and paying $60 to see it for a third time doesn't sound exactly fair. But the irrational side of me is bumming about having to see it with my mom instead of a friend. My mom's going to fall asleep like she always does. The back up plan was to see it with my cousin but of course he's not free that day. So ANYONE wanna go?? $60 for front mezz tickets as to $95! Wed Aug 16th! 8pm ::sigh::
Life pretty much blows in terms of socializing with my friends...or for that matter with anyone outside of my family. I feel I've reverted back like three years and it's just so unnecessary! In situations like this I usually just tell myself, "You can't complain about something you do nothing about". So in order to remedy my issue I've got to step up and do something for myself. Instead of staying up til odd hours and waking way too late in the day. I should go out and see the world! But going around by yourself is so depressing. There's nothing like shared experiences but I have no friends to SHARE experiences with. No one's around because I don't actively seek them out. Of course they won't come and find me though. Everyone's got something better going for them and it's not like my company would add anything positive to that.
I've got to stop being so self-depricating but I can't help it. It's sad that that's become part of who I am.
Before you engage in any sort of relationship you have to be happy with yourself. If you're not content with who you are then you have the potential to drag down whoever you let enter into our life. That's unfair. So isolating myself from people (well that's what it feels like i'm doing) is not surprising...
This is so dull. I'm so dull. god, SNAP OUT OF IT.
It's so weird to feel like you've grown up but at the same time not at all. I don't know where I've read this before but it struck a chord in me. Society has become so obsessed with social and personal milestones that you feel totally burdened if you haven't. I don't have a problem with where I am in my life but I can't help but feel the pressure that I should have done this and that by age whatever. So unnecessary! You get where you get whenever you do. I try to tell myself that.
I just have to stop caring so much, or concern myself so much, or....I just need to preoccupy myself with something constructive so I won't even need to think. Good plan.
Life pretty much blows in terms of socializing with my friends...or for that matter with anyone outside of my family. I feel I've reverted back like three years and it's just so unnecessary! In situations like this I usually just tell myself, "You can't complain about something you do nothing about". So in order to remedy my issue I've got to step up and do something for myself. Instead of staying up til odd hours and waking way too late in the day. I should go out and see the world! But going around by yourself is so depressing. There's nothing like shared experiences but I have no friends to SHARE experiences with. No one's around because I don't actively seek them out. Of course they won't come and find me though. Everyone's got something better going for them and it's not like my company would add anything positive to that.
I've got to stop being so self-depricating but I can't help it. It's sad that that's become part of who I am.
Before you engage in any sort of relationship you have to be happy with yourself. If you're not content with who you are then you have the potential to drag down whoever you let enter into our life. That's unfair. So isolating myself from people (well that's what it feels like i'm doing) is not surprising...
This is so dull. I'm so dull. god, SNAP OUT OF IT.
It's so weird to feel like you've grown up but at the same time not at all. I don't know where I've read this before but it struck a chord in me. Society has become so obsessed with social and personal milestones that you feel totally burdened if you haven't. I don't have a problem with where I am in my life but I can't help but feel the pressure that I should have done this and that by age whatever. So unnecessary! You get where you get whenever you do. I try to tell myself that.
I just have to stop caring so much, or concern myself so much, or....I just need to preoccupy myself with something constructive so I won't even need to think. Good plan.