mehr!

[bjames]

so school is all wrapped up in every way possible. all my exams are done, papers turned in, reviews finished, and i'm completely cleared out of the studio. i had originally planned to do some traveling after school, because my ticket home isn't until the 10th of may, but i don't have any money left. i don't have any money, but that's not because i spent it all, i'm out of money because i lent a large sum of it to my parents back in february, and they have yet to pay me back. my dad had assured me that he'd pay me back in march, then march went by, then april, and now it's the beginning of march, i'm out of school, i'm wanting to travel, and now i don't even know if i'll have enough money to support myself, and pay rent for the next ten days!!! and it's not like, from what they expressed to me, that what they used the money for was all that important. i know my dad got another golf membership, and i'm not sure about some of the other expenses. what they spent it on isn't the issue, the issue is that they said they'd pay me back and they didn't, and now it's ruining my plans. i haven't expressed any of my frustrations to them, but i did ask them for some money when i thought it was still possible to do some traveling, and they tried to wiggle out of that. i'm not even looking for an apology, but it would be nice for them to at least express some flicker of acknowledgment to the fact that they said they'd pay me back in march, and haven't so yet. all my dad's said about the issue is, "yea, so you'll have some money when you come back in the summer," and something to the affect of "you can have fun in rome." YES, ALL THAT IS TRUE, but since it's my money in the first place, i should be able to do what i want when i want.

i'm never lending money to my parents again. which isn't to say i'll never give them money again, but i just will tell them to keep it, and have no intentions of ever seeing it again, or having to depend on getting it back.