I almost forgot!
With how bad of a day I was having this afternoon I almost forgot how much better a few of my friends made me feel this weekend
It all started on Friday.....
I was awake at 4 30am ET getting ready to be picked up to go to the airport at 6am....flight was supposed to leave at 8 49 but due to maintenance probs. i was able to get on an earlier one...awesome!!...of course the layover in Detroit was extra long...but seeing as how I lost my drivers license somewhere on the first flight, it gave me time to calm down (slightly) and to eat breakfast...much needed!...but besides the food it wasn't that great of a morning...i hate planes by the way...then on the second flight i got a little motion sick...which SUCKED ASS!!...i hate planes!...and for some odd reason...i suppose i was finally waking up or something...i started getting emotional again, though i managed to control it...finally, i hate planes, i arrived in memphis and went out to meet my parents...have i said that i hate planes?!?...
anyway...so we drove to a Cracker Barrel to eat lunch and then headed to the revenue dep. in W. Memphis to get a new drivers license...fun...then we headed home...
on the way, Alec texted me...honestly, i was surprised...but glad...so blah blah blah....we ended up hanging out friday night...i had a great time...i had missed him so much...and idk it seemed like maybe we were starting over...not for any particular reason...it was nice...like were leaving all the bad stuff in our past behind...i did almost ask him about one thing, but he asked me not to...so i dropped it...and that was that...it's a good feeling to know he's my friend again...at one point when we were driving back to my house we were listening to "drops of jupiter"...idk something about that song i suddenly found awe inspiring and then i started to sing...and then everything opened up...despite all my efforts to control myself...i started crying...and he let me lay my head on his shoulder and cry while he drove...until i made a made a really embarrassing noise-something between a sob and a hick-up...then he started making me laugh...and honestly for the first time in the past few weeks i felt completely better...in just those few minutes everything was alright again...i could never explain how much that meant to me...so we came back to my house and watched some comedy for awhile...and i actually found it to be hilarious...which is really saying something...and then he left...i hope i get to see him again sometime...not that im getting attached again or anything...we've both moved on for the most part...and i can accept that...it would still be nice to see him every now and then, though...
The coming of saturday morning...well...noon...ended one of the best sleeps i have had since college started...and not because my is extremely comfortable...which it is...but so is my dorm room bed believe it or not...im not sure why but i didnt wake up tired or dreading the day to come...so anyway i got ready to head to conway...and then my dad stopped me to talk...it was a very annoying but much needed conversation about college and transferring...i wont go into it here...it took about 1.5 hours...woo...lets just say i was very emotional once again...you know its funny how i can remember years ago when i wished i could show emotions because i didn't know how and it saddened me...and now i can't get them to stop...though i suppose it's healthier to be able to feel them and get them out...
ok back to the story....finally i got out of the house and made it to conway...i missed amber so much too...i also met adam-amber's bf-he was pretty cool...amber and i walked around campus and hung out...then we ate pizza at the burrow(sp?)...that night they were throwing an off season st patty's day party...partly in my honor...so anyway they made this drink called shamrock suicide (name courtesy of amber)...it was cool...josh and brandon both showed up to the party...it was good to see them both again...most of the party we were all either singing, dancing, or playing spin the bottle...later we went to another party...and danced some more...and for some reason a random guy picked me out of the crowd to "be the gf" of another random guy who upon meeting i promptly said "im living in mass." and he yelled to the other guy, "you fixed me up w/ a damn yankee!!" haha...that was fun...especially trying to explain that im not a yankee...though i don't think he was capable of listening...so i ignored him and amber and i left...then we headed back to her dorm...to the common room...there was a balloon helix tied to the ceiling fan...which was turned on...we all lay under it and watched it spin...that was awesome...anyway...to avoid writing a book...we hung out the rest of the night w/ two of her friends nathan and joe...doing tarot and talking...around 4 we went to bed...i slept on this awesomely comfortable bean bag mattress in her room...then awoke the next morning...ate lunch w/ them...and headed home...
overall i had a wonderful and sad-free time
thank you, to my two friends who helped me out this weekend...knowingly or not...you have no idea what it meant to me
It all started on Friday.....
I was awake at 4 30am ET getting ready to be picked up to go to the airport at 6am....flight was supposed to leave at 8 49 but due to maintenance probs. i was able to get on an earlier one...awesome!!...of course the layover in Detroit was extra long...but seeing as how I lost my drivers license somewhere on the first flight, it gave me time to calm down (slightly) and to eat breakfast...much needed!...but besides the food it wasn't that great of a morning...i hate planes by the way...then on the second flight i got a little motion sick...which SUCKED ASS!!...i hate planes!...and for some odd reason...i suppose i was finally waking up or something...i started getting emotional again, though i managed to control it...finally, i hate planes, i arrived in memphis and went out to meet my parents...have i said that i hate planes?!?...
anyway...so we drove to a Cracker Barrel to eat lunch and then headed to the revenue dep. in W. Memphis to get a new drivers license...fun...then we headed home...
on the way, Alec texted me...honestly, i was surprised...but glad...so blah blah blah....we ended up hanging out friday night...i had a great time...i had missed him so much...and idk it seemed like maybe we were starting over...not for any particular reason...it was nice...like were leaving all the bad stuff in our past behind...i did almost ask him about one thing, but he asked me not to...so i dropped it...and that was that...it's a good feeling to know he's my friend again...at one point when we were driving back to my house we were listening to "drops of jupiter"...idk something about that song i suddenly found awe inspiring and then i started to sing...and then everything opened up...despite all my efforts to control myself...i started crying...and he let me lay my head on his shoulder and cry while he drove...until i made a made a really embarrassing noise-something between a sob and a hick-up...then he started making me laugh...and honestly for the first time in the past few weeks i felt completely better...in just those few minutes everything was alright again...i could never explain how much that meant to me...so we came back to my house and watched some comedy for awhile...and i actually found it to be hilarious...which is really saying something...and then he left...i hope i get to see him again sometime...not that im getting attached again or anything...we've both moved on for the most part...and i can accept that...it would still be nice to see him every now and then, though...
The coming of saturday morning...well...noon...ended one of the best sleeps i have had since college started...and not because my is extremely comfortable...which it is...but so is my dorm room bed believe it or not...im not sure why but i didnt wake up tired or dreading the day to come...so anyway i got ready to head to conway...and then my dad stopped me to talk...it was a very annoying but much needed conversation about college and transferring...i wont go into it here...it took about 1.5 hours...woo...lets just say i was very emotional once again...you know its funny how i can remember years ago when i wished i could show emotions because i didn't know how and it saddened me...and now i can't get them to stop...though i suppose it's healthier to be able to feel them and get them out...
ok back to the story....finally i got out of the house and made it to conway...i missed amber so much too...i also met adam-amber's bf-he was pretty cool...amber and i walked around campus and hung out...then we ate pizza at the burrow(sp?)...that night they were throwing an off season st patty's day party...partly in my honor...so anyway they made this drink called shamrock suicide (name courtesy of amber)...it was cool...josh and brandon both showed up to the party...it was good to see them both again...most of the party we were all either singing, dancing, or playing spin the bottle...later we went to another party...and danced some more...and for some reason a random guy picked me out of the crowd to "be the gf" of another random guy who upon meeting i promptly said "im living in mass." and he yelled to the other guy, "you fixed me up w/ a damn yankee!!" haha...that was fun...especially trying to explain that im not a yankee...though i don't think he was capable of listening...so i ignored him and amber and i left...then we headed back to her dorm...to the common room...there was a balloon helix tied to the ceiling fan...which was turned on...we all lay under it and watched it spin...that was awesome...anyway...to avoid writing a book...we hung out the rest of the night w/ two of her friends nathan and joe...doing tarot and talking...around 4 we went to bed...i slept on this awesomely comfortable bean bag mattress in her room...then awoke the next morning...ate lunch w/ them...and headed home...
overall i had a wonderful and sad-free time
thank you, to my two friends who helped me out this weekend...knowingly or not...you have no idea what it meant to me