Apparently, I'm a selfish bitch.

[bittydancer]

I'm sorry ok? I'm sorry for being selfish.  For wanting to relax.  For wanting to smile.  I'm sorry for forgetting about everything for a few hours.  I'm fucking sorry.  I dont know what the hell I'm doing wrong.   I really don't.  I was having a good day.  I was in a good mood.  My dad has to go and pretend to take charge of my life, and ruin it

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[geshertzarmeod]

I love you so much Shayna. The physical effects of stress are scary (I of all people understand this) so please, for your own sake, relax. I know it's so hard to do, and hard to find the time to do it, but just taking deep breaths and calming yourself will help. It's important to not let other people's shit get to you, because it will just affect you, and you need to watch out for your own well-being. Elaine told me this trick she learned the other day- when you're feeling so overwhelmed with things that you can't focus on what's important, take a deep breath in and think "right" and exhale and think "now." Then repeat it, so in your head you're thinking "right...now" and you get back to focusing on what you need to get done, and it'll help to clear your mind. I hope that helps. I'm always here for you, and I love you so so so much ♥

PS~ In a month, APs will be over. Isn't that a beautiful concept? This stress won't go on forever, I promise. It's just a hard period right now- one of the joys of being juniors. But it'll pass. Gam ze ya'avor, my dear :)