procrastinating

[bittrswt_regret]

well i am once again avoiding my homework. but what else is new, right. so i've been doing a lot of thinking lately, but i havent really come to much of a conclusion. i hate seeming obsessive and stuff, and it seems like i'm always talking about the same things. this is what got my into my previous problems with the friends i care so much about. iunno. this weekend was so much fun. i love all my friends, they are so awesome when we're not fighting haha. jkjk i love them no matter what.  yeah. so next weekend corn maize no matter what. ihop was the shit though haha. i havent laughed that much since...well i laughed that much at lunch but thats only because i was reliving the tales of saturday :D haha. yeah...well now sophia and kourtney might have mono :X   and i've been trying to avoid it cause, like i said, i dont want to seem obsessive, but this guy is just bothering the fuck out of me. i mean iunno maybe im just crazy and paranoid, but to me it seems like things have changed. and like people say that like my priorities have changed and that i'm very focused on like the wrong things. and in some ways this is true. but it just seems like iunno. i mean i know i've changed. i was actually talking to justin about that last night. and i've been talking with a lot of my friends about the ways i've changed in just the past months, let alone the past years. iunno.   well i just sorta vented to kourtney so there really isnt much point in this entry. sorry. but thank you for being willing to listen to it anyways :)   i found this quote on one of my friends' pages:   ask me why i keep on loving you
when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me...
the problem is
that as much as i can't force you to love me,
i can't force myself to stop loving you.   aw the truth sucks. i dont love him though. not in the least bit. i think hes afraid of me. smoooth alyssa.    thanks for listening. back to homework.   ily lyss