Brewers game
So tonight I went to my first baseball game this season. Went with the wife and all of her co-workers. It was an okay time. Drank some beer and watched some baseball. Brewers won by the way 3-2. I guess it was exciting. All of it except getting a whole in my shirt from some damn fence. **Eye roll** Anyways on to the real reason I decided to write a blog about tonight and it really has nothing to do with baseball at all. Just something someone said about being out at a bar with the guy they are "seeing" but not "seeing". They just told me that even though they keep their business between them to themselves when around people that know both of them. Well they were at a bar together one night and a few people they both know were there too, he looked at them, then turned to her and said fuck it I don't care and he kissed her. At that moment I was jealous. Not of him and her but just of the fact that he put aside all of the reasons that they are keeping it a secret and kissed her. He didn't care what people would say about it. It just makes me feel so alone and out of the loop. But now I know how I am and if I had someone like that for a long time I would be sick of it. People that keep their distance from me that want me to like them are smart or those who are at a far distance from me. They keep me wanting more from them. The ones that suffocate me should be ready for a let down from me. Anyways, I just feel really alone at the moment. I haven't felt that way in a while. I have always loved being single but a single gesture by a guy that I don't know well to someone that isn't me made something in me snap. Well now I have a call from a friend that just got laid. So now I am even more alone!
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