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I love realizing things. Like you can just be sitting there and suddenly go “Oh shit! That’s it!” Such a great feeling. Almost as good as peeing after holding it in for 4 hours. I’m sure you might be reading this going… get to the point Ashley. What did you realize? Well your wish is my command! Back home in Livonia there is a guy I’ve had a crush on for about 3 years now, and I haven’t seen him since around May last year. I didn’t forget about him, I just didn’t think about him until my mom would randomly call me and tell me she’d seen him. Last night I decided to indulge myself in his presence. Probably one of my better ideas. He’s even more handsome then when I had last seen him, and we finally got to talk beyond his mom and my mom trying to set us up. So as I was sitting across the table from him my realization hits me. In my giddy mood I let out a random giggle. Everyone looks at me wondering what it is I’m laughing about because no one has said anything that could be possibly funny. In order to cover myself up I said I just realized something and everyone goes back to talking. I lure my mom closer so I can see if it’s just me or is my realization actually there. (getting closer to my realization here) I whisper in my mom’s ear to look at “dash” and see if he looks like someone else in my life lately. My mom gets this smile on her face and then it was confirmed. My latest disaster looks like “dash” . Only “dash” is 5’9”, built, dresses nicely, and well uhm has beautiful cheekbones. But so things for him have been…rekindled :) I love feeling like a little kid. *giggling* It kind of makes me want to stay home for…the next month or few :) Yeah there is only a slight speed bump in my way. No worries I have no intentions of getting involved in another love triangle, nor do I have any intentions of driving over it really fast in my car. My new plan is to sit on the curb and wait til he does some construction and takes down the speed bump. *sigh* On that note I’m going to take a nap and hopefully continue my dream. haha now that is a story to tell JJ

Well I don't mind waiting 'til you're comfortable with me
But what's it gonna take to prove that I'm for real?
'Cause you know how I feel about you
You know I can't live without you
I just wanna stay and make it real

'Cause I know, you know
it can't get much better
Fireworks flyin' whenever we're together
I know, you know, that I know you love me

Well I've made up my mind that I want you to be the one
The one I wanna be with when I'm ninety-two

I just wanna feel you tonight
making sure the moment's just right
I could die just staring in your eyes
I just wanna feel your heartbeat
hold you even closer to me
Fall asleep with you right by my side
We'll see fireworks tonight

I've waited all my life to make this perfect every way
And sharing it with you would make it even more than that
We'll see fireworks tonight