Copied from my iPhone notepad. 9:32am
I'm really scared and stressed from the threat of miscarriage. Yesterday I was cramping, and last night I started bleeding. I don't know what it means. Am I being punished ? What have I done ? Despite all these worries I've found how thankful I am for Edwin. He really is a kindred spirit.. He cares for me truly regardless of if we are going to have a baby or not. I txted him this morning, when Emily and Sam didn't answer my texts.. Ed txted me back within 2 minutes- and called before I could even text him back. I let him know what was up and he was very sympathetic..didn't cause me stress or seem to blame me- just said "well we will see mami." then proceeded to tell me about the waterfalls and 3 legged chiuauas in Puerto Rico that only eat meat. ^.^ He seems happy, even when talking about the mini earthquakes he's been experiencing. :) says he's the fattest person on the beach- mommas made him gain bout 20 pounds, lol. (oh and apparently everyone eats like this there but he says it all goes to the dudes muscles and girls tits and ass.--not fair) He says he's going to get in shape when he gets home and if all this doesn't work out then I will definitely be joining him. We talked for half an hour, and he made me feel better instantly. I laughed over his stories, and smiled picturing the scenery he was painting for me. So I'm very thankful God has put him in my life. On the other hand, I wish my mom would get off my back. Stressed enough as it is.