Nov 03, 2014 15:13
This past weekend was one that was planned on a whim. I went down to Austin with Erin for Halloween weekend. Thursday night, we got there, with a hotel booked on 6th. We met up with Gary at a bar and had two beers with him. We chatted about our new found "grown up lives". It was really great to catch up with him and I was excited to spend time with Erin. We have been pretty distant with one another (in our true fashion), just caught up with our own lives, since we stopped living together. I definitely missed her and it was great to get caught up in her carefree spirit again.
After seeing Gary, we headed back to 6th and walked down to dirty. We perched up on a balcony with some drinks and people watched, making up scenarios for all the drunken people in costumes stumbling around. We found ourselves at another bar, with about 30 minutes left in the night. We got some free drinks and headed upstairs. The night turned into a strange string of events from there- Erin was a happy camper.
The next morning, we headed to South Congress for some shopping and lunch. It was great just hanging out, with no agenda. I was driving her back to her friends apartment and we took the scenic route through the greenbelt, which was gorgeous.
I met up with Cory at a hotel he had gotten us, and when we saw each other, I could feel something wasn't quiet right. We had a great dinner, but with a serious undertone to our conversation. We chatted about the inevitable speed bump we were about to cross over. The distance is becoming too much. I feel us drifting apart, caught up in our own lives. We talked about how we are on different playing fields, never to catch up to one another for at least two years.
Could we do this another two years?
We will be together 4 years come January, but it doesn't feel like that at all.
I asked him what was wrong the following morning, he said he felt we were weird, and I said I felt it too. He closed his eyes tight and tears streamed down his face.
The weekend was not the best for him and I.
I do not know what is to come for us, I just know I want him to be happy and if I am unable to give him what he needs, I want him to find himself someone that can.