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I've been in the new place for a week now. I love being so close to things, but at the same time I'm having difficulty staying in and saving money. It is somewhat lonely so I know that is why I keep trying to go out when I'm not at work, but I really need to shape up and figure out the grad school situation. The GRE needs to become a priority again, but man is it difficult to get back in the academic mindset. Honestly I can somewhat understand how people who take time off from school just never go back. Though I understand my job and I am making a good salary, there is this overwhelming feeling of needing more. I need school. The more I think about it though, school is what I know, it's my comfort zone. This position is good to push me out of my shell more.

Lately I have really been starting to miss him, when we do randomly talk, it's just difficult because I want to be with him, yet at the same time, I am enjoying being single. He wants to visit soon and I am scared to see him, mostly because I know a rush of emotions will wash over me and I'll go weak in the knees. He's the love of my life and who I want to spend every day with. But it's necessary for me to experience this single thing, mostly because when we get back together, that's it- and I'm excited for that time.

I should really get a plant in the apartment, and bring my beta so I can have some other living things in the place :)