Eating Disorder
Was reading some poetry by Maria Palacios today, who I rediscovered recently, and came across this particular gem:
Eating Disorder
-
Every now and then
I snack on memories
now stale
from the passage of time
-
It's not that I'm hungry for you
or that I miss you.
Boredom sometimes leads to bingeing
therefore I nibble
on the past
even though your name tastes sour
~
The poem was so striking to me today, following a night and a day of revisiting some memories unwanted, but not thoroughly uninvited. Wasn't bored either, still trying to figure out why, sometimes and not others. I know right now I'm feeling extra vulnerable and dependent with my hand in stitches. Mike has been so incredibly helpful and loving and all things that are good through this ordeal. My fears being disproved, along with the fear of them being proved, is sometimes overwhelming.
Eating Disorder
-
Every now and then
I snack on memories
now stale
from the passage of time
-
It's not that I'm hungry for you
or that I miss you.
Boredom sometimes leads to bingeing
therefore I nibble
on the past
even though your name tastes sour
~
The poem was so striking to me today, following a night and a day of revisiting some memories unwanted, but not thoroughly uninvited. Wasn't bored either, still trying to figure out why, sometimes and not others. I know right now I'm feeling extra vulnerable and dependent with my hand in stitches. Mike has been so incredibly helpful and loving and all things that are good through this ordeal. My fears being disproved, along with the fear of them being proved, is sometimes overwhelming.