I was scared for nothing.
The reunion was nothing. I was extremely happy with that. The good side was that noone who could have made me feel like shit was really there. The sad news, there are still people in this world that I let have enough control over me to make me feel bad about myself. I don't even like these people, but I'm concerned because I know that they don't like me. I haven't come as far in the past 10 years as I thought I had. This is something that I need to work on.
I was surprised to find that LGC was a lot nicer than I thought. Not that fake nice, but the really nice nice. I have to reevaluate my take on things that I thought I knew.
Other than that, I'm trying to work on myself as an individual. I'm trying to find my way to live the life that I need to. To figure out what God has in store for me, and to let him tell me. Ben has been great with our quest. I didn't think that he would even try. I guess Nathan was right. If he loved me he would do this for me. And, he does. He is giving it a shot. Do I think that we're doing what we need to do? No, we're not even close. Do I think it's a start. Yes. Do I still have some issues. Yes. Definately. Do I think that God will help me with those. I do. And, that makes all the difference in the world. And I'm so thankful that Ben and I will be able to do this together. I don't want it to be a choice. I want nothing more than to have him by my side for always.
I was surprised to find that LGC was a lot nicer than I thought. Not that fake nice, but the really nice nice. I have to reevaluate my take on things that I thought I knew.
Other than that, I'm trying to work on myself as an individual. I'm trying to find my way to live the life that I need to. To figure out what God has in store for me, and to let him tell me. Ben has been great with our quest. I didn't think that he would even try. I guess Nathan was right. If he loved me he would do this for me. And, he does. He is giving it a shot. Do I think that we're doing what we need to do? No, we're not even close. Do I think it's a start. Yes. Do I still have some issues. Yes. Definately. Do I think that God will help me with those. I do. And, that makes all the difference in the world. And I'm so thankful that Ben and I will be able to do this together. I don't want it to be a choice. I want nothing more than to have him by my side for always.