clarifications
So Day 1 of my resolution to be a productive graduate student went okay. I still made it to the library an hour later than I had hoped to, and spent the first hour trying to get myself organized, so I didn't really start until this afternoon - I managed to do a few hours of reading. The biggest problem is the large amount of negativity I have built up towards this comprehensive.
For those of you that aren't familiar with the ins and outs of graduate school, to finish a PhD each student has to write a comprehensive exam - I wrote my major field (in International Relations) last year and wrote my minor field (comparative politics) in January. Three of us wrote together, and two of us were asked to rewrite one question each. So, I am spending the next two weeks in the library to study for the rewrite.
This being said, I am just so filled with contempt about the whole thing - the committee never followed up with our progress when we were studying, never asked when we wanted to write, didn't write back to emails, nor did we find out about the rewrite until three months after we had written it. Therefore, we treated it as did the committee, no interest in the process except for having a hoop to jump.
Until now.
So, I hated the process the first time around. I am DESPISING it this time around. But I still have to do it. You know what the crappy part is --- all this is influencing how I feel about my PhD altogether. I have been feeling apathetic for a couple months and this isn't helping! I want to feel passionate about my ideas again! Boo.
Anyways, there is still time for a couple more hours tonight, so that's what I am going to do.
For those of you that aren't familiar with the ins and outs of graduate school, to finish a PhD each student has to write a comprehensive exam - I wrote my major field (in International Relations) last year and wrote my minor field (comparative politics) in January. Three of us wrote together, and two of us were asked to rewrite one question each. So, I am spending the next two weeks in the library to study for the rewrite.
This being said, I am just so filled with contempt about the whole thing - the committee never followed up with our progress when we were studying, never asked when we wanted to write, didn't write back to emails, nor did we find out about the rewrite until three months after we had written it. Therefore, we treated it as did the committee, no interest in the process except for having a hoop to jump.
Until now.
So, I hated the process the first time around. I am DESPISING it this time around. But I still have to do it. You know what the crappy part is --- all this is influencing how I feel about my PhD altogether. I have been feeling apathetic for a couple months and this isn't helping! I want to feel passionate about my ideas again! Boo.
Anyways, there is still time for a couple more hours tonight, so that's what I am going to do.