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I hide in plain sight behind all of this mass because I want to be left alone. Being left alone is easier than being left. Being alone is less complicated, less stressful, but ultimately, it is just less. I am more to be less. Now, I just need to be less to be more.
It is going to be tough. I don't think I really have felt the right to be happy, which sounds very teenage cliche. My romantic side and realist side have hidden behind a pessimistic side. Now, if I can start to make changes, I think I can be ready for more.
It is not that I am unhappy with my current life, my current friends, my current ways. It is just that I am not particularly happy either. I want that disruption. I want to live again.
It is going to be tough. I don't think I really have felt the right to be happy, which sounds very teenage cliche. My romantic side and realist side have hidden behind a pessimistic side. Now, if I can start to make changes, I think I can be ready for more.
It is not that I am unhappy with my current life, my current friends, my current ways. It is just that I am not particularly happy either. I want that disruption. I want to live again.