Desintegrating
I'm starting to forget keyboard shortcuts. Today I've had troubles recollecting a keyboard combination for pasting from the internal midnight commander buffer (shift + f5). The day before yesterday when I went to bed I left the lights on in the kitchen - i.e. I proceeded from the kitchen to the bedroom without realizing something was not right.
Almost daily I have feats of sadness. I don't even know how to describe that properly. I suddenly start feeling very bad as if everything is wrong and almost break into tears. Don't know what's going on.
Mom called yesterday and we (mostly she) talked quite amicably. She didn't call for quite some time because she was afraid the connection would be poor, i.e. she was afraid of me getting mad for no reasons.
My sleeping regime is even worse than ever. Yesterday, sorry, this morning I went to bed at 7:35am only to wake up by myself (I don't remember anything which could have woken me up) at 1pm, so I slept for less than six hours. Damn.
I've promised to myself countless times that I'd never go to bed past 12pm. Countless times this promise has been broken.
From 7:30pm to 11pm I was helping an acquaintance of mine with his PC, his wife's laptop and his new phone and in the end he asked me how much he owed me. I told it was a ruble (1000 rubles). Damn, either people are stupid or more like I'm an idiot. 3.5 hours of professional work just cannot cost this little. The truth is I know I ask for too little hoping that maybe people will be a little more generous but it almost never happens.
A few moments ago Maria (she's in Spb) offered to go to England because she'd found cheap tickets. As always, she's stupid and doesn't even one step ahead. A few minutes after her proposal I wrote a single word, "visas". Then it finally dawned on her that visas are required to visit GB, "Aaah, yeah, really".
Almost daily I have feats of sadness. I don't even know how to describe that properly. I suddenly start feeling very bad as if everything is wrong and almost break into tears. Don't know what's going on.
Mom called yesterday and we (mostly she) talked quite amicably. She didn't call for quite some time because she was afraid the connection would be poor, i.e. she was afraid of me getting mad for no reasons.
My sleeping regime is even worse than ever. Yesterday, sorry, this morning I went to bed at 7:35am only to wake up by myself (I don't remember anything which could have woken me up) at 1pm, so I slept for less than six hours. Damn.
I've promised to myself countless times that I'd never go to bed past 12pm. Countless times this promise has been broken.
From 7:30pm to 11pm I was helping an acquaintance of mine with his PC, his wife's laptop and his new phone and in the end he asked me how much he owed me. I told it was a ruble (1000 rubles). Damn, either people are stupid or more like I'm an idiot. 3.5 hours of professional work just cannot cost this little. The truth is I know I ask for too little hoping that maybe people will be a little more generous but it almost never happens.
A few moments ago Maria (she's in Spb) offered to go to England because she'd found cheap tickets. As always, she's stupid and doesn't even one step ahead. A few minutes after her proposal I wrote a single word, "visas". Then it finally dawned on her that visas are required to visit GB, "Aaah, yeah, really".