and things are so much better
So all... life isnt as bad as it was. matt came over tonight and my mom was nice to him, crazy. in addition to that i got to lay with him, and thats the best. we got icecream, chilled and watched some tv. wonderful. i'm .. glad we worked everything out. i'm really really glad.
on to better things, well really its worse. phil.. i hate him and i hate him so much more for all that he's done. he is such a jerk. he is telling everyone anything we ever did, and then lying about stuff we havent. its so .. upsetting, how can i spend so much time, energy, and love with someone who is just going to hurt me like this. all he has left is a mistake, all he will be to me anymore is a mistake. i cant believe it has come to this. god freaking damn it. why did it have to be like this??? he just needed to quit talking a out me, how hard is that? damn you phil, damn you phil.
on to better things, well really its worse. phil.. i hate him and i hate him so much more for all that he's done. he is such a jerk. he is telling everyone anything we ever did, and then lying about stuff we havent. its so .. upsetting, how can i spend so much time, energy, and love with someone who is just going to hurt me like this. all he has left is a mistake, all he will be to me anymore is a mistake. i cant believe it has come to this. god freaking damn it. why did it have to be like this??? he just needed to quit talking a out me, how hard is that? damn you phil, damn you phil.