What should I do and am I bipolar?
I am currently diagnosed with: Depression, Generalized Anxiety, Agoraphobia, Psychosis, Acid Reflux and Irritable Bowel Syndrome.
My family doctor is 100% sure she has the right diagnosis while I am beginning to wonder if maybe I have soft bipolar along with severe anxiety issues.
My problems have been going on for years and my family doctor suspects I actually began having depression in high school. When out of high school, and in college I was tired all the time, miserable, and stuff. I quit school after a complete semester and floated around limbo land for 6 months at which point I moved.
I moved to Quebec City, and tried to find work there but could not. I was so miserable I was vomiting every day not because I wanted to but because I honestly felt ill. My partner began telling my that my family did not care about me, and that he was my only support. In time, I began to believe it and when I did the rapes began and continued on a regular basis over 3 years.
I went back to school and this is when my anxiety issues became visible. I was tired, often having back pains, and whatnot. I had a hard time attending my classes and I was often contacting teachers to catch up on work. I set myself up with the colleges psychologist who said I had generalized anxiety and depression.
I moved back, away from the abusive guy after I graduated college. I saw a doctor which prescribed celexa and within a week I grew to be twitchy, hyper, and based on the description from people around me very annoying. After that I slowly mellowed out but I spent nearly every cent I had, slept with 7 different people in 6 months. I had threesomes, foursomes, learned all about sex toys. I spent obscene amounts of money on sex toys, meals out, etc... I was back in school and I did alright but I still maintained a bad attendance record.
I graduated, got a job at Bell Sympatico. Life was fairly normal until I grew miserable, my stomach was hurting so badly I had a hard time getting out of bed, I was tired all the time, all my muscles hurt, etc. I went on sick leave.
While on sick leave I grew to be isolated, then scared of everyone and everything. I kept my blinds closed, I would never leave the house, I checked vehicles and people I didn't recognize because I thought they were creditors out to get me. I had a hard time just checking the mail as I was convinced creditors were sitting outside my apartment and would begin harassing me to pay my debts.
After several months on sick leave I found a new job. I was fine at first but after 2 months I felt ill again. I was tired all the time, I was spending my money frivolously, my sex drive was insane, and whatnot. I ended up having bad gas (to the point I could stink up the whole office), diarrhoea, constipation, painful cramps, nausea, etc... I was on sick leave for 6 months.
I grew isolated again. I was afraid of the paperwork I needed to fill out for EI or welfare so I wouldn't fill it out and then would end up without money. I would spend the day sleeping all the time, or on the computer chatting with people. I was barely eating etc etc...
Now... I finished that sick leave in Jan 2006. I am still isolated, still keeping my blinds closed, uncomfortable going out, have been cut off by most of my friends, etc etc etc...
I saw a psychiatrist once for a 1 hour evaluation who was a nice guy but he did not seem to understand english or french very well. He kept asking me to repeat myself and believed that forced sex within a long term relationship is not rape. He asked lots and lots of questions about my sex life, my relationships, and about two expressions ("Don't put your eggs all in one basket" and "Don't judge a book by it's cover"). It was strange but whatever... He says he suspects that I suffered from a minor psychosis and in turn my medication is right for what I have. He said I should reconsider talk therapy and that he is referring me back to the CLSC for that. He encouraged me to pursue school as well. He did not send the report to my doctor, she had to send him a request for a report and the next appointment after that she finally had it in her hands. The report said very simply that her diagnosis is correct and that my medication is right. I asked for a second opinion and she said that I don't need it which really bothers me.
I am wondering what you think I should do, and whether or not you think it is possible that I am bipolar.
My family doctor is 100% sure she has the right diagnosis while I am beginning to wonder if maybe I have soft bipolar along with severe anxiety issues.
My problems have been going on for years and my family doctor suspects I actually began having depression in high school. When out of high school, and in college I was tired all the time, miserable, and stuff. I quit school after a complete semester and floated around limbo land for 6 months at which point I moved.
I moved to Quebec City, and tried to find work there but could not. I was so miserable I was vomiting every day not because I wanted to but because I honestly felt ill. My partner began telling my that my family did not care about me, and that he was my only support. In time, I began to believe it and when I did the rapes began and continued on a regular basis over 3 years.
I went back to school and this is when my anxiety issues became visible. I was tired, often having back pains, and whatnot. I had a hard time attending my classes and I was often contacting teachers to catch up on work. I set myself up with the colleges psychologist who said I had generalized anxiety and depression.
I moved back, away from the abusive guy after I graduated college. I saw a doctor which prescribed celexa and within a week I grew to be twitchy, hyper, and based on the description from people around me very annoying. After that I slowly mellowed out but I spent nearly every cent I had, slept with 7 different people in 6 months. I had threesomes, foursomes, learned all about sex toys. I spent obscene amounts of money on sex toys, meals out, etc... I was back in school and I did alright but I still maintained a bad attendance record.
I graduated, got a job at Bell Sympatico. Life was fairly normal until I grew miserable, my stomach was hurting so badly I had a hard time getting out of bed, I was tired all the time, all my muscles hurt, etc. I went on sick leave.
While on sick leave I grew to be isolated, then scared of everyone and everything. I kept my blinds closed, I would never leave the house, I checked vehicles and people I didn't recognize because I thought they were creditors out to get me. I had a hard time just checking the mail as I was convinced creditors were sitting outside my apartment and would begin harassing me to pay my debts.
After several months on sick leave I found a new job. I was fine at first but after 2 months I felt ill again. I was tired all the time, I was spending my money frivolously, my sex drive was insane, and whatnot. I ended up having bad gas (to the point I could stink up the whole office), diarrhoea, constipation, painful cramps, nausea, etc... I was on sick leave for 6 months.
I grew isolated again. I was afraid of the paperwork I needed to fill out for EI or welfare so I wouldn't fill it out and then would end up without money. I would spend the day sleeping all the time, or on the computer chatting with people. I was barely eating etc etc...
Now... I finished that sick leave in Jan 2006. I am still isolated, still keeping my blinds closed, uncomfortable going out, have been cut off by most of my friends, etc etc etc...
I saw a psychiatrist once for a 1 hour evaluation who was a nice guy but he did not seem to understand english or french very well. He kept asking me to repeat myself and believed that forced sex within a long term relationship is not rape. He asked lots and lots of questions about my sex life, my relationships, and about two expressions ("Don't put your eggs all in one basket" and "Don't judge a book by it's cover"). It was strange but whatever... He says he suspects that I suffered from a minor psychosis and in turn my medication is right for what I have. He said I should reconsider talk therapy and that he is referring me back to the CLSC for that. He encouraged me to pursue school as well. He did not send the report to my doctor, she had to send him a request for a report and the next appointment after that she finally had it in her hands. The report said very simply that her diagnosis is correct and that my medication is right. I asked for a second opinion and she said that I don't need it which really bothers me.
I am wondering what you think I should do, and whether or not you think it is possible that I am bipolar.