Abilify Update and a song
The abilify seems to be helping, I guess. I noticed that when I didn't take it for 2 days I was a lot more laible in my emotions - crying at the drop of a hat... but I do that anyhow in my depressive phase. I cry at TV a lot, because it's like I'll think "I want to BE that." In everything from a "buy a car!!" commercial to the white picket fence and so on and so on. I go back to the doc in a couple of days and I'm going to suggest raising the Abilify by 5mg. and hopefully that will help. Other than that I'm taking Buspar 15mg, which does help moderately with my anxiety - although I'm still waking up with that can't breathe feeling, or losing sleep because I'll start dreaming of some situation that's making me anxious. Like I told the nurse though, until they can invent a pill to make my home circumstances better, I'm going to still have these problems. God but I wish they'd invent that pill and invent it soon!
PS: I was listening to a song by Three Doors Down called "Away from the sun" and I swore it HAD to be written by or for someone with bipolar depression.
Here are the lyrics:
It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone do what I've done
I missed life
I missed the colours of the world
Can anyone go where I am
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again
I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I've known
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't do what I've done
And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
PS: I was listening to a song by Three Doors Down called "Away from the sun" and I swore it HAD to be written by or for someone with bipolar depression.
Here are the lyrics:
It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone do what I've done
I missed life
I missed the colours of the world
Can anyone go where I am
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again
I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I've known
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't do what I've done
And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines the life away from me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again