I don't know what i am doing
I haven't posted on here for a long time. I kinda feel a little out of control.
Type your cut contents here. I'm supposed to be on like 4 different medications: Abilify, Trileptal, Prazosin, and Seroquel. The only medication that i take is Seroquel, and that is so i can sleep. I haven't taken the other medications for at least 3 months. Everything has been ok so far. I"m bipolar but i haven't had a manic episode or been depressed since i stopped taking the medications. However, the last week or two i have felt myself kind of losing control. I haven't seen my medication doctor in like 4-5 months and my next appointment isn't until the end of October. I don't know if she will listen to me asking for different medications if she knows that i haven't been taking the ones that I'm supposed to be taking. My case manager keeps asking me if i want to end back up in the hospital and i keep telling her no. Since you don't know me, i have been hospitalized 15 or 16 times in the past 8 years. I know that I'm going downhill because I started using drugs again after being sober for almost two years and I have cut one time after not cutting for over a year and a half. It's like every time something good happens i have to go and mess it all up. I just moved into my own apartment for the first time in my life and now i am in danger of losing that. I think that i'm getting depressed as i take my seroquel, usual dose, and i cannot wake up until like 12 hours later. I don't know if it's me being depressed or if it is me using and not sleeping for a day or two and then coming down. I don't really know what to do and I don't really have anyone in my life that i can talk to about this stuff. I feel alone right now and that is not a good feeling.
Type your cut contents here. I'm supposed to be on like 4 different medications: Abilify, Trileptal, Prazosin, and Seroquel. The only medication that i take is Seroquel, and that is so i can sleep. I haven't taken the other medications for at least 3 months. Everything has been ok so far. I"m bipolar but i haven't had a manic episode or been depressed since i stopped taking the medications. However, the last week or two i have felt myself kind of losing control. I haven't seen my medication doctor in like 4-5 months and my next appointment isn't until the end of October. I don't know if she will listen to me asking for different medications if she knows that i haven't been taking the ones that I'm supposed to be taking. My case manager keeps asking me if i want to end back up in the hospital and i keep telling her no. Since you don't know me, i have been hospitalized 15 or 16 times in the past 8 years. I know that I'm going downhill because I started using drugs again after being sober for almost two years and I have cut one time after not cutting for over a year and a half. It's like every time something good happens i have to go and mess it all up. I just moved into my own apartment for the first time in my life and now i am in danger of losing that. I think that i'm getting depressed as i take my seroquel, usual dose, and i cannot wake up until like 12 hours later. I don't know if it's me being depressed or if it is me using and not sleeping for a day or two and then coming down. I don't really know what to do and I don't really have anyone in my life that i can talk to about this stuff. I feel alone right now and that is not a good feeling.