[ Collective Thoughts ] : relax.
i myself, look at the world and people as art.
may that be because of their personality, they way they dress, the way they look, their mannerism's, etc. everyone is their own individual, and it took alot of my teenage hood to accomplish this goal i made upon myself because.. i honestly think its my best quality.
" Whether or not I like someone doesn't depend on what kind of genitals they have. "
being that, i also do not like to publish myself as " gay " or even " bisexual ", honestly.. i look at myself as Human. As Matthew Hampton. As what i am and who i am, the person you all know as me. that being said it shows, in my taste's of movies, music, video games, etc. All things that interest me are not only commercial, but underground and unexplained. it's not like me to talk about myself in this manner but i have sure learnt that i am definitely not 'normal'.
" and i wouldn't have it any other way. "
as, i am now 21. my views, my morals, and myself are changing rather quickly in the last few weeks. i have grown dramatically. and it's honestly came from just looking at myself, and the people i have in my life now. i couldn't understand myself for a long time, wanting desperately to just let everything out and pour my heart and darkest secrets to the people around me. i look back and am honestly a little disgusted in myself. Sure, im alot more cynical now. it shows. and sarcastic. but, i can honestly say that .. in a long time. i feel complete.
" If everything was everything but everything is over "
things haven't been looking up for me lately, due to the economic crisis im told. but things will iron out eventually. i don't doubt a position somewhere will arrive at my feet sometime soon. or something rather magical will happen. either way, i shouldn't beat myself up too much about it. as it is only temporarily. as well as i have been rather depressed about my current state, as you can read in my blogs. but it's nothing too big or small for myself.. its all moderate. well, it can be. my head is constantly at a battle.. with ying vs yang. i would always understand the best interests and desires of something but also see the consequence , effects and reaction.
"cause and effect"
knowing more so, about me. i have learnt ultimately, i am not selfish. just wondering. hoping, and dreaming.
hoping for big miracles in this small world. this small place where i sit and watch the people around me, constantly bicker and live.
though,
i feel like as if i am a ghost among everyone. even those closest to me.
may that be because of their personality, they way they dress, the way they look, their mannerism's, etc. everyone is their own individual, and it took alot of my teenage hood to accomplish this goal i made upon myself because.. i honestly think its my best quality.
" Whether or not I like someone doesn't depend on what kind of genitals they have. "
being that, i also do not like to publish myself as " gay " or even " bisexual ", honestly.. i look at myself as Human. As Matthew Hampton. As what i am and who i am, the person you all know as me. that being said it shows, in my taste's of movies, music, video games, etc. All things that interest me are not only commercial, but underground and unexplained. it's not like me to talk about myself in this manner but i have sure learnt that i am definitely not 'normal'.
" and i wouldn't have it any other way. "
as, i am now 21. my views, my morals, and myself are changing rather quickly in the last few weeks. i have grown dramatically. and it's honestly came from just looking at myself, and the people i have in my life now. i couldn't understand myself for a long time, wanting desperately to just let everything out and pour my heart and darkest secrets to the people around me. i look back and am honestly a little disgusted in myself. Sure, im alot more cynical now. it shows. and sarcastic. but, i can honestly say that .. in a long time. i feel complete.
" If everything was everything but everything is over "
things haven't been looking up for me lately, due to the economic crisis im told. but things will iron out eventually. i don't doubt a position somewhere will arrive at my feet sometime soon. or something rather magical will happen. either way, i shouldn't beat myself up too much about it. as it is only temporarily. as well as i have been rather depressed about my current state, as you can read in my blogs. but it's nothing too big or small for myself.. its all moderate. well, it can be. my head is constantly at a battle.. with ying vs yang. i would always understand the best interests and desires of something but also see the consequence , effects and reaction.
"cause and effect"
knowing more so, about me. i have learnt ultimately, i am not selfish. just wondering. hoping, and dreaming.
hoping for big miracles in this small world. this small place where i sit and watch the people around me, constantly bicker and live.
though,
i feel like as if i am a ghost among everyone. even those closest to me.