[ Collective Thoughts ] : fucked.
nothing can compare to individuality. but its obvious, that it can also be threatening. Sure, i go out alot, i wanna dance and enjoy my time. and hell, yeah i drink alot and love getting high. its alot more easier to forget about the world when all i look forward to is dressing up with makeup and outfits, and go dancing and just leave my problems at the door when i leave the house.
recently i lost my job, due to "business decisions" after finally feeling like i was getting somewhere with this job, it was great money and the job itself was enjoyable actually. basically lately i feel just fucked. i have next to no money in my wallet now, and it's such a horrible feeling. i hate crawling back into this state of sleeping in and staying up all hours. feeling like i have next to nothing to kill my time. it's even getting to the point where i just wanna party 24x7. and honestly, i do not want that.
with looking for jobs, i can only try and hope that i'll get hired soon. or even more so, my mood picks up. there's some wonderful people around me who know how to make me smile and laugh contagiously, and i adore that. it's unfortunate i cannot have them around me 24x7 to keep me this way, but then again i really wouldn't want to put that responsibility upon anyone.
ugh.
recently i lost my job, due to "business decisions" after finally feeling like i was getting somewhere with this job, it was great money and the job itself was enjoyable actually. basically lately i feel just fucked. i have next to no money in my wallet now, and it's such a horrible feeling. i hate crawling back into this state of sleeping in and staying up all hours. feeling like i have next to nothing to kill my time. it's even getting to the point where i just wanna party 24x7. and honestly, i do not want that.
with looking for jobs, i can only try and hope that i'll get hired soon. or even more so, my mood picks up. there's some wonderful people around me who know how to make me smile and laugh contagiously, and i adore that. it's unfortunate i cannot have them around me 24x7 to keep me this way, but then again i really wouldn't want to put that responsibility upon anyone.
ugh.