It must be the weather!
It's been two months since that unfortunate day... And today, something stirred things up. It must be the weather~
One of our company activities for this month is Impromptu speaking. I was scared just the thought of standing infront of my fellow teachers and talk about stuff and things that might end up in disaster or worse a lifetime embarrassment. The activity has already started when I entered the room. I silently sat and it was not less than 2 minutes, I was called and gosh, it was my turn!
My heart was pounding, my hands were shaking and I was just plain nervous... Until I picked that random orange paper with a random topic written on it.
Tell about a ghost of someone you would want to meet and why.
I was given 30 seconds to think about it, organize my thoughts and such. No matter how hard I try not to think of my dad, it's only him I could think of. Maybe it was the right time to just talk about it and let it out.
This was not the exactly it but for lj purposes I've added some things and polished it. ^^
"I remember him. I miss him. When I close my eyes at night and sleep, I see him. That sucks because I know he's never gonna be there when I wake up. Now to be given a chance to meet a ghost of someone, that would be of my dad's. I would just spend a moment with him and treat it like a day when we would watch basketball/sports or when we would jam or when we would talk about aliens or otherworldy beings. And it would be lovely If I could just see and feel that he's at peace and no longer in pain. And if we could hold each other again, I'd definitely hug him like there's no tomorrow! And if my dad would give me a pat on the head or on my shoulder, I'd savor it!"
It was all a blur now and I'm trying hard to remember what happened to me and to my speech haha (I have to see if anyone had recorded it)... I did cry a lot and it was very ugly! It was liberating, though.
So there, I hope this one little post would somehow help me interact with my friends online and offline again. I miss you, all!
Happy Children's Day in Korea! The reason why I was able to post today... no classes and hold.
One of our company activities for this month is Impromptu speaking. I was scared just the thought of standing infront of my fellow teachers and talk about stuff and things that might end up in disaster or worse a lifetime embarrassment. The activity has already started when I entered the room. I silently sat and it was not less than 2 minutes, I was called and gosh, it was my turn!
My heart was pounding, my hands were shaking and I was just plain nervous... Until I picked that random orange paper with a random topic written on it.
Tell about a ghost of someone you would want to meet and why.
I was given 30 seconds to think about it, organize my thoughts and such. No matter how hard I try not to think of my dad, it's only him I could think of. Maybe it was the right time to just talk about it and let it out.
This was not the exactly it but for lj purposes I've added some things and polished it. ^^
"I remember him. I miss him. When I close my eyes at night and sleep, I see him. That sucks because I know he's never gonna be there when I wake up. Now to be given a chance to meet a ghost of someone, that would be of my dad's. I would just spend a moment with him and treat it like a day when we would watch basketball/sports or when we would jam or when we would talk about aliens or otherworldy beings. And it would be lovely If I could just see and feel that he's at peace and no longer in pain. And if we could hold each other again, I'd definitely hug him like there's no tomorrow! And if my dad would give me a pat on the head or on my shoulder, I'd savor it!"
It was all a blur now and I'm trying hard to remember what happened to me and to my speech haha (I have to see if anyone had recorded it)... I did cry a lot and it was very ugly! It was liberating, though.
So there, I hope this one little post would somehow help me interact with my friends online and offline again. I miss you, all!
Happy Children's Day in Korea! The reason why I was able to post today... no classes and hold.