weird..
it is...weird how I still feel young, yet I'll be 20 this year. I can look back on entries from the end of junior high/beginning of high school. Was it really that long ago? I was thinking today how crazy life is - one moment you're 17, enjoying the feeling of accomplishment that graduation produces...next you're looking back almost two years later wondering where it all went. I've had amazing experiences the past couple of yeats that I wouldn't trade for the world, but I still feel like I'm missing out on something. I lack the spark of passion that is needed to continue on after this. I'm getting the question a lot... "What are you goign to do after you graduate?" And I keep telling people that I have no clue. Cars? Writing? Something else entirely? I truly have no idea. I would love to do everything, see the world and just travel for while. I have a feeling though...that's not going to happen immediately. Maybe I'll go to auto tech school...get a cert. to work on cars. Thenn....build a portfolio of writing and slowly send in stuff to magazines? Sounds like a good plan; one that could change completely tomorrow. It changes every second these days.
Life still surprises me every day, and I pray that it continues to do so for the rest of the time i'm here. I would love to wake up to something new every day...something good. I tell myself that it's wonderful to be single - I do love it. And yet I still feel the ache of loneliness when I pass a couple on campus. I can't help but think about how I don't have that feeling of completeness. I know it's not a good idea right now considering I'm going home in a month, and I don't really know anyone I would want to go out with anyway. Still, the thought remains. Nothing to do about it though I suppose...it'll happen when it's supposed to, right?
I'm thinking about that again...I'll be home in a month and two days. my college career is almost half over (provided it only takes four years :P ). I'm thrilled though, to go home. I'll be back to work, I'll be seeing family, and I get to do a lot of stuff as well. Like Drenched, and maybe Creation? not too sure about that one yet though. maybe something can be arranged. Oh well. I can just hope..if it doesn't work out that's alright too.
I found out about my knee...the one I injured 1 1/2 months ago by tripping on stairs. It's been hurting still, so I went to health services to get it checked out. Apparently the force of my fall injured the inside of the kneecap where it hits my femur...so I have to wear a knee brace for 3 weeks while I wait for it to heal. Oh joy...I get to look like a gimp (as usual I guess :P ) around campus when it's nice out. The (minute) prices I pay for being clumsy...
Well...I have a ton of stuff to do tomorrow -- writing a prospectus for my renaissance lit. class, working on a presentation for the same class....and rearranging our room (again). It's been a month, so we figured it would be fun to finish out the year with something different. marks the third time this semester..... (yes, we're crazy...) So it is off to bed in the hopes of waking up this afternoon... ;)
Life still surprises me every day, and I pray that it continues to do so for the rest of the time i'm here. I would love to wake up to something new every day...something good. I tell myself that it's wonderful to be single - I do love it. And yet I still feel the ache of loneliness when I pass a couple on campus. I can't help but think about how I don't have that feeling of completeness. I know it's not a good idea right now considering I'm going home in a month, and I don't really know anyone I would want to go out with anyway. Still, the thought remains. Nothing to do about it though I suppose...it'll happen when it's supposed to, right?
I'm thinking about that again...I'll be home in a month and two days. my college career is almost half over (provided it only takes four years :P ). I'm thrilled though, to go home. I'll be back to work, I'll be seeing family, and I get to do a lot of stuff as well. Like Drenched, and maybe Creation? not too sure about that one yet though. maybe something can be arranged. Oh well. I can just hope..if it doesn't work out that's alright too.
I found out about my knee...the one I injured 1 1/2 months ago by tripping on stairs. It's been hurting still, so I went to health services to get it checked out. Apparently the force of my fall injured the inside of the kneecap where it hits my femur...so I have to wear a knee brace for 3 weeks while I wait for it to heal. Oh joy...I get to look like a gimp (as usual I guess :P ) around campus when it's nice out. The (minute) prices I pay for being clumsy...
Well...I have a ton of stuff to do tomorrow -- writing a prospectus for my renaissance lit. class, working on a presentation for the same class....and rearranging our room (again). It's been a month, so we figured it would be fun to finish out the year with something different. marks the third time this semester..... (yes, we're crazy...) So it is off to bed in the hopes of waking up this afternoon... ;)