i ahte this dame life
hello again.
i wish i could just run away and never have to look back have no tie downs or anything. so many things bother me now to.me and my ex are talking again and we plan to have a future together in about a yr but i dunno if i can handle her and her bf and then me sitting here with the thought that maybe she wont leave him. everything is so fucked up but yet i have no control over any of it. today i hung oput with abbie for a while but she had patas jacket on and i just wanted to put in under my truck and spinn my tires on it. i hate everyone and everything now. nothing makes me happy and the things that i think will dont. i dont know me anymore. i wish i could find something one day that would tell me how this life ends for me. i wish i was dead sometimes and other times im really happy that im here.
yesterday i got paid 300 and i ahd to spend 135.50 on books for school but i can retrun them later and get money back which is great. i hope my life truns out to be alot better then the past 17 yrs.
i got to go later
i wish i could just run away and never have to look back have no tie downs or anything. so many things bother me now to.me and my ex are talking again and we plan to have a future together in about a yr but i dunno if i can handle her and her bf and then me sitting here with the thought that maybe she wont leave him. everything is so fucked up but yet i have no control over any of it. today i hung oput with abbie for a while but she had patas jacket on and i just wanted to put in under my truck and spinn my tires on it. i hate everyone and everything now. nothing makes me happy and the things that i think will dont. i dont know me anymore. i wish i could find something one day that would tell me how this life ends for me. i wish i was dead sometimes and other times im really happy that im here.
yesterday i got paid 300 and i ahd to spend 135.50 on books for school but i can retrun them later and get money back which is great. i hope my life truns out to be alot better then the past 17 yrs.
i got to go later