i hate the way i am
to everyone who knows me i am sorry for everything. i hate how i am i hate how i cry so much over something that i shouldnt according to everyone. i hate how i hurt i hate how i never sleep and i hate my new jpb because all i do is think about the times we spent at sonnys in ormond. no im not over u abbie and i dont know what it will take to get me over u but im not gonna try to forget u like u wish i would. i cant help how i fucked up with us and yea i agree i was the wrost i could b when i was with u. maybe it was because u would always b there in m,y head i dont klnow but i wish i icouod change that i wish i wasnt sitting here fixing to drop out to get away from this life i once had i hate every thing about me the person i was when i was with u. i reall truely am sorry for everything and i hope one day we meet again were i can becaome what i shoulda been. i hate how i feel everyday i never smile and i never seem happy maybe because deep down inside im not maybe im just as mad as u r abbie. i dont know and im just saying how i am. i never wated u to break up with pete. i just wanted a chance thats all. i know i will always love u and im sure u know i will im just wish u could have seen the me who is a bf and not some fucked up person. this is my last entree so for every one who loved me who cared about me i am gone. i will b in no ones lifes for i feel to shity to deserve the presence of a friend right now and i wish i would have killed my self the night everone was looking for me because then i wouldnt be sitting here wanting it. it would already be done. good bye to all