Home and Change
Life has rather settled into a routine lately. This is mostly a good thing, I like predictability of it. I've come a far cry from the days I'd bounce back and forth from state to state looking for something different, for change. Someplace to call home. Home is here now and it's not so much a place (although having my own place does distinctly add to the feel) as it is a sense of belonging and being comfortable where I am. It's comforting to know I'll have an ever expanding and contracting group of people over every Thursday. Who I have in my space is entirely up to me. And yes of course Rich, although often times when I'm thinking of "me" in terms of our space and our lives Rich is so much an intregal part that I dont even think to say "Rich and I" because it's so obvious. I always want him here, anyone he brings in is most liable to be someone I want here as well, because, well our comfort is each others comfort.
Anyways, I digress. I was talking about routine and how it is both good and bad. On the good side is stability and happiness. Friday painting gathers that make me get work done and every other Saturday D&D games to let my imagination play. On the downside I've managed to entrench some routines that are not healthy and are hitting the point where they desperately need to change. My sleep cycle has become stuck on 4-6am go to bed 1-4pm wake up. I can reset it by staying up through the morning or utterly exhausting myself during the day but it seems it always ends up right back where I started from two days later. This is aggravated by the fact that my body has been getting worse. I'm regularly taking an Ibuprofin to get to sleep. Last night it was two. I despise taking pain medications. I dont do so unless I absolutely have to and for the past several months I have had to because not sleeping is not an option. This has to change. I need a way to reduce the inflammation in my body that doesnt require medication. I'm thinking this means changing my routine in terms of food and exercise. I need to dramatically reduce the meat I'm eating, possibly partially replacing it with fish, and increase the whole grains and veggies. I desperately need exercise. Low impact, something that wont mess my joints up even more. Swimming or yoga. God, a heated pool would be awesome. Anyone know of any up here around Palatine? Most importantly I need to actually *DO* this. Pull myself out of the routine I've grown so comfortable in and get the important things dealt with.
Anyways, I digress. I was talking about routine and how it is both good and bad. On the good side is stability and happiness. Friday painting gathers that make me get work done and every other Saturday D&D games to let my imagination play. On the downside I've managed to entrench some routines that are not healthy and are hitting the point where they desperately need to change. My sleep cycle has become stuck on 4-6am go to bed 1-4pm wake up. I can reset it by staying up through the morning or utterly exhausting myself during the day but it seems it always ends up right back where I started from two days later. This is aggravated by the fact that my body has been getting worse. I'm regularly taking an Ibuprofin to get to sleep. Last night it was two. I despise taking pain medications. I dont do so unless I absolutely have to and for the past several months I have had to because not sleeping is not an option. This has to change. I need a way to reduce the inflammation in my body that doesnt require medication. I'm thinking this means changing my routine in terms of food and exercise. I need to dramatically reduce the meat I'm eating, possibly partially replacing it with fish, and increase the whole grains and veggies. I desperately need exercise. Low impact, something that wont mess my joints up even more. Swimming or yoga. God, a heated pool would be awesome. Anyone know of any up here around Palatine? Most importantly I need to actually *DO* this. Pull myself out of the routine I've grown so comfortable in and get the important things dealt with.