Fuck editing part 2
Well I have a thought on my mind and i feel the need to get it out in writing. There was this girl from the end of spring semester. We were in the musical together and started to really get to know each other by the end of the whole thing. Unfortunately, this is with like one and a half weeks before I drive back home to GA and she is off to Vermont. We stayed in touch this summer, but as soon as we were back to school together, It was like we never had any time for each other. We both had class during the day and the entire afternoon everyday was reserved for football practice. At night I was too tired to hang out. I thought it would get better after football but it turns out this whole time we are trying to get together she started falling for this other guy. Fuck me right.
I thought I had a good chance at a relationship that I felt could have gone somewhere. Ya know, somewhere in the right direction. But inevitably, things have a way to now work out for me. I dont feel bad for myself, but I do want more.
In the past, I have had some really good girl friends, but none have ever blossomed to relationships. It is sad I think. Because I really care/cared for those girls. As I am getting older I want to experience things with new people to add some excitement in my life. But I would be happy to be with one of those girls right now. And It is weird because I know we both think about it. A lot. I mean she hasnt told me that, but i know she does. It is hard to tell someone who you care about that you care about them. (MAy need to read that twice) I can't decide if the risk of ruining the relationship we have is enough. I dunno. Whatever. I need something to do for new years.
I thought I had a good chance at a relationship that I felt could have gone somewhere. Ya know, somewhere in the right direction. But inevitably, things have a way to now work out for me. I dont feel bad for myself, but I do want more.
In the past, I have had some really good girl friends, but none have ever blossomed to relationships. It is sad I think. Because I really care/cared for those girls. As I am getting older I want to experience things with new people to add some excitement in my life. But I would be happy to be with one of those girls right now. And It is weird because I know we both think about it. A lot. I mean she hasnt told me that, but i know she does. It is hard to tell someone who you care about that you care about them. (MAy need to read that twice) I can't decide if the risk of ruining the relationship we have is enough. I dunno. Whatever. I need something to do for new years.