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im so angry at life right now
i just got off the phone with someone at York and she pretty much told me im screwed because i didnt send in the extra forms.
"You should always check the website before you apply to anything through OUAC."
Thanks lady she told me to contact the film department directly. but i've been calling for three days and no one picks up. i honestly don't know what the fuck to do. not even just with universities. this week has been so shitty. with everything. i just want to crawl into my bed and just sleep until it all blows over.
I tried talking to you. i dont know what more you want from me. you told me that you didnt want to have to restart again. so im trying not to. but, fuck, its not even me anymore. i admit, i can be a huge jackass at times, but im rly tryin hard to change. and you're pretty much the reason for that. and i dont even know why im tryin to change so you'll be my friend. What makes you worth it?
I dont know why im holding back from telling you the truth. i think im just scared that if i vocalise it, everything will come rushing back to me. and that's the last thing i want right now. plus, we've been doing pretty good and i know the truth would just ruin everything again.
i rly need this party tonight. i rly rly rly do.
i just got off the phone with someone at York and she pretty much told me im screwed because i didnt send in the extra forms.
"You should always check the website before you apply to anything through OUAC."
Thanks lady she told me to contact the film department directly. but i've been calling for three days and no one picks up. i honestly don't know what the fuck to do. not even just with universities. this week has been so shitty. with everything. i just want to crawl into my bed and just sleep until it all blows over.
I tried talking to you. i dont know what more you want from me. you told me that you didnt want to have to restart again. so im trying not to. but, fuck, its not even me anymore. i admit, i can be a huge jackass at times, but im rly tryin hard to change. and you're pretty much the reason for that. and i dont even know why im tryin to change so you'll be my friend. What makes you worth it?
I dont know why im holding back from telling you the truth. i think im just scared that if i vocalise it, everything will come rushing back to me. and that's the last thing i want right now. plus, we've been doing pretty good and i know the truth would just ruin everything again.
i rly need this party tonight. i rly rly rly do.