i know people change...but me?

[bigmouth88]

I know people change and i know things change you for the person your going to be...but i hate who i am...I hate the person im being coming...its hurts cuz the one person i dont want to change me is...I never would yell at someone the way i have done to you... I would never tell you im going to let you go cuz your crying...I would never get so

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Love Can build a bridge

[my_worst_fears]

You know that song....everyone does...Love can build a bridge between your heart and mine. Lauren, how about we stop trying so hard...maybe in not trying so hard it will make things better, cause we are both trying in different directions...I won't say mean things anymore, I won't say that I am going to go home, I won't say that I am turning around I won't say that I'm not coming out, unless I know I'm not, and most of all I won't say that it's over, cause I don't want it to be. I won't do any of the stuff that hurt you. I can be myself, I can push away this fog that has blinded me from you, I know you need time, thats why I'm trying to give it to you. I love you, and love is enough, but we can't try so hard. We have to let love guide us. I don't yell at you anymore like I was, I stay calm. Like I used to. Yeah I cry a lot, but I am having hard times. Not with you, but my life. Lauren, we don't have to have sex I told you that, we don't have to do that, I want you to hold my hand, and to hold me, I want to be with you, not in you, I don't need sex to be happy with you, thats not what I got in this for...I got in this because I had a best friend that I loved more than I ever have loved anyone and I wanted to take that step. I would take a step back, but I don't want you to be with someone else, I couldn't be your friend, and be able to handle that. I don't want to not have you to hold. I don't want to not be able to call you mine, and know in my heart that it's right, it doesn't seem like it now, but think lauren THINK about it dig into your heart, there is a place that is filled, perfectly, by you. It makes me feel whole. Our hearts make one, and I know you know that...I know you can feel it. So open your heart, you are afraid to hurt me, but if you don't open your heart it's going to hurt me, and if you do it's going to hurt me if it's not right, but I am sure of it and I know it is. Thinking about it has calmed me down...made me relax...stop crying. Cause I know that it's what I feel not what I think. Thinking causes problems on my part. so please when I come out on tuesday give me your hand and let me guide you. Let me show you love. Please, I have showed you before but it was out of our grasp, let me take you there and let it enfold you. Let yourself feel how I feel for you....close your eyes....and imagine...and I will be there....I will be there, I promise. I love you, and YES LOVE IS ENOUGH