i know people change...but me?
I know people change and i know things change you for the person your going to be...but i hate who i am...I hate the person im being coming...its hurts cuz the one person i dont want to change me is...I never would yell at someone the way i have done to you... I would never tell you im going to let you go cuz your crying...I would never get so pissed that i would want a break ever...but i do and it hurts thinking that because of us dating it has made me a no feeling care person that person i was does not matter anymore in my eyes.. And i hate it i see myself doing thing like almost drinking tonight to make everything go away..old lauren would never do that...Old lauren would never even take a second guess about it she would never think about another person......or anything she would never stop careing about the one thing that means the most.....being true to myself...I think us even having sex before i was really really ready fucked things up to...hate to say it but it did.. I luv you and want to be with you but i dont seem like me with you...Im trying my fucking hardest believe me!!!! I AM!!! but i dont know hwo much longer i can do this...I luv you but i dont know if luv is enought!!!