Control your mind
The other day I continually realized how much control we can have over minds thoughts and emotions. Do what you like can be a powerful statement if you apply it to every second of the day.
While at work I was flustered in my thinking about a conversation I had had earlier. The conversation is not at all important, but the fact that it really seemed to upset me is the issue. For about 15-20 minutes I kept over analyzing and dreaming into darkness, but the whole time I obviously didn't enjoy myself and I was faintly telling myself not to think about it.
So finally I just told myself to move on, put a smile on my face and enjoy every minute I have. It worked wonders and I forced myself into bliss. At that point I had a great night and haven't been bothered since. I have been feeling on the top of the world lately and this has been for a while. It is as if I am on some anti-depression drug, because nothing seems to bother me.
Which is not all that good, while feeling good is a huge help in the day, feeling great can almost lead to apathy towards negative feelings. However, the horrors of the tsunami have brought me back to reality. What a devastating loss of so much life. Unfathomable, I can't even process the incredibleness of what happened and what the world has lost.
But I still maintain my bliss of being in love with life. The only thing that came close to getting at me was talking to Beth the other night in which she was being way too nice for me to handle, I can't deal with that anymore. It's like the Beatles' song, "Hello, Goodbye" we just are not in sinc anymore. But I feel too good to go back to the in between feeling that tore me apart before. I just want to work on our friendship without falling into too lovey of a place. But I later found out she was wasted and didn't remember the conversation anyway. Funny shit.
Although that makes me ponder drunken thoughts. Are they our true feelings coming out and with our inhibitions lowered do we not censor our thoughts as much. Or is it that our censored thoughts are more thought out and we have analyzed the situation on a more level mindset and concluded that our censored views are the views we should take. So maybe our drunken thoughts are just as a kid would do without thinking, but that does not necessarily that they are our deep thoughts coming out. I think they are more just a reaction to the moment. We will overexxagerrate the situation we have at the moment, and our actions are a response to that. Such as loneliness. Loneliness will be exaggerated and if we talk to someone who was the cure for loneliness we are taken back to that feeling and we want that feeling again. But that is only because the alcohol has exaggerated the feeling of loneliness we had in the first place.
While at work I was flustered in my thinking about a conversation I had had earlier. The conversation is not at all important, but the fact that it really seemed to upset me is the issue. For about 15-20 minutes I kept over analyzing and dreaming into darkness, but the whole time I obviously didn't enjoy myself and I was faintly telling myself not to think about it.
So finally I just told myself to move on, put a smile on my face and enjoy every minute I have. It worked wonders and I forced myself into bliss. At that point I had a great night and haven't been bothered since. I have been feeling on the top of the world lately and this has been for a while. It is as if I am on some anti-depression drug, because nothing seems to bother me.
Which is not all that good, while feeling good is a huge help in the day, feeling great can almost lead to apathy towards negative feelings. However, the horrors of the tsunami have brought me back to reality. What a devastating loss of so much life. Unfathomable, I can't even process the incredibleness of what happened and what the world has lost.
But I still maintain my bliss of being in love with life. The only thing that came close to getting at me was talking to Beth the other night in which she was being way too nice for me to handle, I can't deal with that anymore. It's like the Beatles' song, "Hello, Goodbye" we just are not in sinc anymore. But I feel too good to go back to the in between feeling that tore me apart before. I just want to work on our friendship without falling into too lovey of a place. But I later found out she was wasted and didn't remember the conversation anyway. Funny shit.
Although that makes me ponder drunken thoughts. Are they our true feelings coming out and with our inhibitions lowered do we not censor our thoughts as much. Or is it that our censored thoughts are more thought out and we have analyzed the situation on a more level mindset and concluded that our censored views are the views we should take. So maybe our drunken thoughts are just as a kid would do without thinking, but that does not necessarily that they are our deep thoughts coming out. I think they are more just a reaction to the moment. We will overexxagerrate the situation we have at the moment, and our actions are a response to that. Such as loneliness. Loneliness will be exaggerated and if we talk to someone who was the cure for loneliness we are taken back to that feeling and we want that feeling again. But that is only because the alcohol has exaggerated the feeling of loneliness we had in the first place.