Why?
Crying myself to sleep is never fun, especially when you don't understand why. I go from having such a fun time tonight, to trying to force back tears. Why? Hopefully one day something or someone will help me understand this more. Why do I feel this way, why do I care so much, why can't I just let her go, why can't I be happy with or without her in my life? To much to try and think about right now but i'm giving up hope of ever understanding and believing that it'll all be better one day. How can one seek brightness of dreams when the darkness of reality always weighs in the balance?